3 Am In The Morning....

It's 3 AM in the morning and yet again I am thinking about you, while I lay in bed next to my partner for 6 months now. Oh dont get me wrong, I do love her but still, deep down inside of me, just when I thought I forgot everything about you, it all comes flooding back as soon as my head hits the pillow. I can just lay here for hours thinking about your smile and the way you used to do your shy giggle when I first met you or the times you would pull a sad face when ever I didn't give you that kiss, just as I was leaving you for work or to go out with friends which would make me melt inside, cuddle you up and gently kiss you.... I also remember that time you lost your job.... You came home crying your eyes and your mascara was running down your soft face, I remember holding you for hours on that day while you just fell asleep in my arms
Because you were so mentaly exhausted and I just watched your smile come back on your face because you knew everything was going to be ok and I'll never forget how strong you made me feel, you were my rock and my soulmate who I could turn to when ever I needed someone to talk with. I would give anything to change the reason why we had split up but I guess deep down inside, we both knew that it wouldn't work out as both of our life's changed.... Yes, I have moved on but deep down inside I'll always miss you... Everything about you. Now I find myself thinking "Should I get in touch with you?".. Maybe, one day I will....
AWonderingGuy AWonderingGuy
22-25, M
2 Responses Jan 16, 2013

I feel for you. I know that feeling all too well. It's nice to know that men can feel this way too. We women are always told we are just too emotional and crazy. I miss someone too. Although it seems he isn't missing me. If you think you should contact her then maybe you should! I say go for it!!!!

I'm so sorry. That is tragic. I hope you find happiness.