I Miss Him

This year, I went to college. It's six hours from home. It's not that bad. I go home on breaks so I see my family once or twice a semester. My boyfriend is at home though. And I miss him so much sometimes. I would never tell anyone this. I feel like I'm just whining when I talk about it. But it has been building up and I feel like I'm ready to burst with sadness. He is a Senior in high school. He will be choosing where he goes to school next year soon. He wants to be near me but who knows if he'll be able to. (I'm sorry, I swear I'm better at writing than this. I can't even think right now.) Spring Break is in 5 weeks and I was so excited to be able to go home and see him. But we just found out that he has a ski race the weekend I'll be home and he won't be there. I don't really know if I'll get to see him at all until Summer. I know I'm young and it isn't the end of the world. I just feel so overwhelmed by sadness right now. I feel like i have nothing to look forward to in the near future and that just makes me feel so lost. I haven't made a lot of good friends at college because I spend so much time doing work. I take my school work very seriously, thats always been my nature. I am so incredibly lonely. Its not always this bad but tonight I just couldn't handle how sad I feel. I just wish I had someone to talk to. I wish someone would hug me and tell me that everything will be okay.
wishandwait wishandwait
18-21, F
1 Response Feb 10, 2013

Hello honey. I read your story and I want you to know that I know exactly how you feel. Any of us who have been fortunate enough to have ever entered into a special relationship, a young love, understand how profound and over powering it can be to be separated. It consumes your thoughts and shadows you restlessly. The heart beats harder and faster with a mix of loneliness and worry. It’s rough carrying those heavy emotions around.
No one can console you except the person you’re thinking about. But you are not alone. Most everyone has been there and I’m sure there are many in your dorm right this instant that feel the same way. Friendship, epically new friends can sometimes help. Intense exercise works also. Take a challenging hike with a few other people… Be good to yourself. Your allot stronger than you think. You’ll see.