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I Miss My Husband

i just left last night and i feel like i am dying inside. he doesn't understand why i left and even i am questioning it. so much has happened between us and just when things were getting better he said one thing that ticked me off and its like i couldn't get over it. I feel like ****.

goldie25 goldie25 31-35, F 15 Responses Mar 11, 2008

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I was in a similar situation years ago, and everytime I left I would go back to this psyco. In the end I was treating them the same (well not exactly). Please don't let it go that far for you. And it does get better, it just takes time. I hope you have enough self respect to do what is right for YOU. It's hard enough to get yourself through this life.

I'd give you a big hug too, but I was always told not to hug strangers, lol.

Hope things work out!

I was in a similar situation years ago, and everytime I left I would go back to this psyco. In the end I was treating them the same (well not exactly). Please don't let it go that far for you. And it does get better, it just takes time. I hope you have enough self respect to do what is right for YOU. It's hard enough to get yourself through this life.

I'd give you a big hug too, but I was always told not to hug strangers, lol.

Hope things work out!

i know needit. I know. I know. I know. sigh.

What's it going to take ,girl? A trip to the hospital? The morgue?



He lost the right to your support and affection the moment the hitting started. Get out!



You don't have to divorce him if you do not want to. Tell him to get it together! Get a job. Be self supporting. Date you. Romance you. Show that he can respect you and respect himself. If he is not willing to make that effort to win you back, what kind of future do you think you will have? Or the children you want? Do they deserve a Dad, a role model, who beats Mom and maybe them? Won't hold a job to try and support them? What kind of example will that be for a young son?



Geez Girl! Wake up!

i sure hope the coming year is better.

well a big hug and kiss to you too Jerrica. You know i love you girl! Hopefully 2010 is better for the both of us!

we can never have too many hugs. i need a few myself these days.

thanks babe!! sigh!!!!!! i cant even really describe how i feel right now, but i do need all the hugs i can get.

((((hugs)))) i can't offer advice, we've talked about that before and you know how i feel about the situation, but i send you my hugs and much support.

thank you hope is what. The sad thing is i have no will power i am already back with him and already suffering the same or if not worse than before. i do love him but i realize i am not in love with him, because you cant love someone who hurts you this much. i still get the butterflies when i see him and i would give anything to just be happy with him, but he can be such a bastard at times. he doesnt help me, he doesnt pay for ****. he curses me out, he smacks me when he is angry. he threatens me. he is ******* bipolar. one minute sweet and lovey dovey the next minute telling me how much he hates me. and when i mean minute, i mean these two emotions are like a half an hour to an hour apart. i have to walk on eggshells. i cant even say we are having good sex. he got mad when I asked for sex last night when i shouldnt even have to ask. i feel so wack that i am basically only getting occassional fun and games and companionship out of this man, when i am not a lonely or desperate girl. i deserve so much better and know that i can have it. The thing is i feel bad for him because i know he is ****** up mentally and i know he relies on me. but who the **** is going to take care of me in the mean time. it would be different, not completely better, but different if i could at least hang out with friends and family and use them as a substitute to get some of my joy back but even that is a problem with him. he treats me ****** up but doesnt want me around anyone else. i want to scream, i want to cry. its ******* horrible. i wish so many thoughts that i cant even say on here.

didn't i tell you that same thing once goldie? thanks for validating my point aminik!

Stay strong! It's not easy and of course its gonna hurt at first, but that is how you know that it was meant to be. He will never get help if there is no reason

I can't get excited when i know i have hurt someone i love. i know he hurt me too but he has problems, i really believe a lot of his hurt was unintentional, but without help i know it would never change.

i am sorry you feel like that hun and all i can say is it will get better the pain will ease in time , you can start living your life to the full get excited x x

I'm sorry to hear that.