Omg Dont No Where To Start.. :(
Well as all of you do, i have a big problem with food and it's got out of control. I've tried to sort it out, believe me I have. I've seen a counsellor been put on diets tried to sort out my issues but i just can't. I enjoy food, i cant think of anything else and it's got me into such a bad way. I currently have a carer who helps me do many things like getting up/going to bed, toileting, washing and encouraging me to take a few steps. She's seen it all, I can be terrible, I know I can be, she tries to control what i eat but if she doesnt give it to me, i shout and become very angry until she does. I breakdown after becasue i know what i'm doing is wrong. Although, most of the time I stay in bed or in my chair, she does do some little exercises with me to try and ease me a little. For example, she'll get me onto the bed and i'll roll back with my legs up as high as i can. i feel it relieves some of the anger i have inside. Another one is moving around the bed without her help. I sometimes feel I can manage so I tell her to go. Most of the time, I struggle and call her to come back. I am very depressed but would never consider surgery or anything. I am taking one step now and again but it's so hard. I've never told anyone this before.