I am 25 years old and have been overweight for my entire life. I have always been self conscious about my appearance and often prayed to be 'pretty.' Shortly after turning 21, i drastically changed my image by chopping my hair off which actually proved to me that i was pretty! The sudden boost in confidence propelled me into partying, drinking and drugging which caused me to lose 30lbs. Although i had done nothing productive to have lost the weight, it did not stop me fromt feeling accomplished. Eventually the weight came back with a vengeance, i had moved across the country alone to start a new, and despite all of my accomplishments, i began to spiral into a deep depression. It has been nearly three years since that time and it is now that i realize how angry I am with myself. So much so, that i have seen friendships and relationships fade as well as my self worth. I have paid for a gym membership for four months and literally have only been there once! i start regimines that include eating well, working out and thinking positively that may last a week before i am back on the same routine. At this point in life, i know that losing this weight will be one of the most important step on a roabreakingd to curing my depression. i am just so fed up and disgusted by my laziness. i have reached my breaking point. i am ready to finally take control and will need every bit of support possible.