Alil Bit About My Experience...

I have been heavy since I was about  8 years old. I don't know what it feels like to be at a healthy weight. I'm 21 years old and weight about 280lbs. While I do have people in my life that care about me, I still lack self-esteem... a lot. I usually hide these feelings from friends and family, so I found this site to help me relieve some of what I feel. I've tried many diets. They seem to work, but I never stick to them... then months later, after I have gained back what I lost, I would think about where I'd be at if I had kept up and get mad at myself for my lack of drive. For me, weight loss isn't just physical but emotional too. A lot of my problems are emotional, me conflicting with myself most of the time, and I hate being that way, but I keep seeing myself do the same things. I know that it is in my character to be a lot more outgoing than what I am, and I do think that it has to do with my weight. I feel like I'm trapped in this body. I still do "normal" things I guess, but I want my life to be more than what it is right now. No, I am not going by what society thinks.. I, myself, do not like how I look, and from there most of my problems circle around that. This way of thinking is hard for me, because it makes me a hypocrite. I think that everyone is beautiful in their own way, and see a lot of beauty in other people, but I don't share that view when I think of myself. I'm guessing it's just a preference that I have for myself and I really think that losing weight will really help me not just be healthier physically, but mentally too. I don't want to be a tooth pick, but my big goal is to lose 100 pounds. I would be happy with myself then. I know where I've been and I know what I want.. I just don't really know how to get from where I am now. Diet and exercise, yes, but staying on track is the hardest part. I feel like I'm the one holding myself back from things and mostly all of the reasons are centered around my weight. I just felt like I had to write something for now. It's one way I express thoughts and feelings I can't say at the moment. I want to lose weight. It's a constant struggle, and it definitely sucks :/

XriploveX XriploveX
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 16, 2010

Each day, as soon as you wake up, drink a large glass of clear water! Then carry a water bottle with yourself throughout the rest of the day, and have a drink before any type of food. Little changes will make a big difference. Anyone will lose weight by reading and following the right information; as such, being healthy is a lifestyle, not a diet! There are many good tips on how to achieve permanent weight loss; none of them includes gimmicks, diets, or diet pills. To assist with weight control; keep a daily food journal and every time the urge to snack is felt, first drink a large glass of clear water. It does not hurt to treat yourself with something special once in a while, what is necessary is that you moderate your food portions. Being overweight ******, but after reading a book, I lost 85 pounds! Words can not express how good I feel! This is a comment which I recently received about the book Lose Weight Using Four Easy Steps

The best way I found to lose a lot of weight was to join a gym with a pool and work out in the pool every day.. Swimming is OK, but what really got the weight off me was water walking, water aerobics, and the fact that I had to shop for a bathing suit that would fit, and then put it on in a mirrored locker room to go into the pool where everyone can see what shape you're in. OMG that was awful, LOL.<br />
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If you'd like to talk further about this, pm me. ;-D

i'm the same way when it comes to sticking to goals. set smaller goals for yourself along the way that have an appropriate reward. it'll give you something to work toward and you'll not have as much stress when you go i need to lose 5 pounds as opposed when you go i need to lose 100. it'll help you stick to your goal.