Im Tired Of Being Tired
Last week my Boss told me that he needed to talk to me. He said I could no longer drive the company vehicle because I was to large. I work at a prison and I patrol the outer perimeter fence in a 1998 chevrolet Lumina . This vehicle has 295,000 miles on it.. Last week when I was not in the vehicle the steering wheel broke. I know they blamed me because Other employees overheard several conversations with the supervisors. One supervisor has wanted me out of this job for years and now she had what she needed . The steering broke and of course I was blamed. I am morbidly obese. I weigh about 500 pounds. I am 6' 4" tall. I now must work inside the prison because of my size.. I patroled for 15 years off and on with no problems... I am very embarrased, mad, ashamed, and tired of being ridiculed because Im so big. Most large people already know this but chairs in public places are to small for me. I stand at the dr office until im seen. I dont go to baseball games or concerts. I would never fly on a plane because I know other passengers would be offended. Im married to a wonderfull woman, but she didnt sign up for this. Actually neither did I. My employee insurance will not pay for weight loss surgery of any kind. I worry about dieing young. Being obese robs you of your energy and your self esteem. I feel utterly alone .