I'm So Far Past What I See In the Mirror

     I truly am the hardest person on myself.  I hold myself to impossible standards.  I constantly don't feel good enough and to a degree project that to others, although this is the last thing I actually want to do. 

      I am not an intimidating person, but it seems to show that I don't like what I see in the mirror very much and no it's not weight or gender or personality issues. It's like I always second guess how I could have done something better or made a decision that would have been more appropriate. 

      I am not happy with this  character defect, for lack of a better term, but am at a loss as to how to go about changing it. It has been like this for so long, simply put, I don't know how! I need help, but don't think it's crucial to seeing a therapist, I just want to find better ways of handling things so that I truly can say...

 

I AM MORE THAN I THINK I AM.

classyclaws classyclaws
46-50, F
1 Response Mar 22, 2009

Second guessing myself is probably my favorite pasttime, and I can see it in you. One thing I've realized is when it's done, ride it out ... then react.