Damaged Goods

Yup.  Thats me.  I'm all kinds of ****** up.

Don't believe me?   I have lived through almost 15 deaths of family and friends.  I am only 33.  I was blamed for my dad's death by his own mom, my grandmother.  I lived wtih an alcoholic mother after his death...that pretty.  =/

I have been molested.  I have been raped.  I have been stalked.  I've been attacked.  I've been in abusive relationships.  I have been used for sex.  In fact....that seems to be the ONLY thing people see in me.  And that's just some of it.

I'm not just broken.  You can't put all the pieces of me back together again.  I'm damaged.  Damaged goods.  I know it though.   So .....

Whatcha gonna do?   Just take it a day at a time.  I'll have my good days and my bad.  That's life.  I don't always handle it well.  I don't always think things through like I should.  My logic and thinking can be severally screwed up sometimes.  It is what it is.  Take me or leave me.  Just don't **** with me. 
ChristineJones ChristineJones 31-35, F 7 Responses Oct 1, 2010

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i recently was in a relationship with a girl who i have known for 20yrs.but it was only the last 5months we hung out.we became intament.she had lost her brother who was a frend of mine.then she lost her dad.before both of them she lost her stepdad.i fell in love with her.not only cus of her inteligence.but we seem to have alot in common.she had quit drinking for 3 of the 5 months we were together.she loves to ride horses.i am oppisite.i surf mtn bike hunt fish.but i always liked her from a far.meaning i only saw her now and again.i kno she is broken life has ben ****** for her.after 3 months of wrkin she all of asudden didnt want to hang out.she never would tell me why.i told her i would always be on her side no matter what.i askd if there was sumeone else she said no.i dont kno what happend.she wont say.i sent flowers she loved them.i dont kno if she ever had flowers sent.what the hell should i do.i dont want to give up on her.please help

Me too - lost my mom early in life - grandmother mentally ill but a loving person just couldn't take care of me with her issues - the guy on the birth certificate that is listed as "father" was not my biological father - went to live with an abusive, mean aunt that hated me - or everything she hated she saw rolled up into me - I did work my way through college - just barely - married young to escape - he left me for someone else - and since then just loss after loss - I can support myself - but just getting by - no extras no life - no vacations - socks have to be budgeted for - I'm thankful for a job but why can't I have more - I don't know - I try - but I have realized there is only one common denominator in the sad story of me - and that is me - so now I am going to see where that acknowledgement leads me - but I too don't always trust my thinking - it can be skewed and off track - I have trouble with my thinking but no one who knows me would know that - I hide my problems well - but then I have to think folks know - why else would I be so alone??? anyway - I am broken too.

I wonder if I am broken or damaged myself. I try to analyze and work through my issues, but I think at the end of the day all I can do is take it one day at a time.

Your pain feels deep and I appreciate you sharing, I have pains of my own and often feel alone with them. I feel misunderstood and at times that all that people want from me is what they can make of me or sex. It is an awful feeling. I guess the fuel to that fire is that there is a flaw inside of me that allows me to be taken advantage of. I feel small, but I like it that way. I don't want to be this huge force of a woman, barking and demanding. I just want to be treated the way I deserve and loved for who I am.

Anywho... I love reading your stories.

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Can Wealth Be an Aim?

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Worshipping Allah as an Aim

On the contrary, faith in Allah gives the believer the purpose of life that he needs. In Islam, the purpose of life is to worship Allah. The term "Worship" covers all acts of obedience to Allah.

The Islamic purpose of life is a standing purpose. The true Muslim sticks to this purpose throughout all the stages of his life, whether he is a child, adolescent, adult, or an old man.

Worshipping Allah makes life purposeful and meaningful, especially within the framework of Islam. According to Islam this worldly life is just a short stage of our life. Then there is the other life. The boundary between the first and second life is the death stage, which is a transitory stage to the second life. The type of life in the second stage a person deserves depends on his deeds in the first life. At the end of the death stage comes the day of judgment. On this day, Allah rewards or punishes people according to their deeds in the first life.

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So, Islam looks at the first life as an examination of man. The death stage is similar to a rest period after the test, i. e. after the first life. The Day of Judgment is similar to the day of announcing the results of the examinees. The second life is the time when each examinee enjoys or suffers from the outcome of his behavior during the test period.

In Islam, the line of life is clear, simple, and logical: the first life, death, the Day of Judgment, and then the second life. With this clear line of life, the Muslim has a clear purpose in life. The Muslim knows he is created by Allah. Muslims know they are going to spend some years in this first life, during which they have to obey God, because God will question them and hold them responsible for their public or private deeds, because Allah knows about all the deeds of all people. The Muslim knows that his deeds in the first life will determine the type of second life they will live in. The Muslim knows that this first life is a very short one, one hundred years, more or less, whereas the second life is an eternal one.

The Eternity of the Second Life

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The Need for a Permanent Purpose

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I wish I could help you, but I can't fix you. All I can offer is a virtual hug. Take care, CJ.

Clem xx