After 18 Years

Together for 18 years, married for 13, adopted two adorable little girls, had a house. As of May 1st, 2011, 1 1/2 months after the adoption of both girls was finalized the marriage collapsed. From there things went from bad to worse as she got closer to her new man, a Mormon from Utah, and joined his religion.

She isolated herself and the girls from the family they knew, even going as far as trying to block out the biological family of our oldest girl, a family that we had been welcomed into to the point of feeling as if it were our own. Now she is part of a religion that claims to cherish families and they are supporting her actions because legally the biological grandparents have no *legal rights* due to the adoption having been finalized.

Through all of this she has accused me time and time again, each time these accusations having been investigated and found to be unfounded and dismissed. I am still facing one last charge, one that in the end could cost me my job but what I fear the most is losing my girls who are my entire universe.

I do my best to stay positive, to draw upon the support and encouragements of everyone around me, but it is hard to smile. All I can do is to live one day at a time and hope that this nighmare ends soon. Once this is done, I wonder if there will be a kind soul out there to care for me as I would love to care for her. I know that after all this I will be far more then "broken" and it is hard to imagine anyone willing to put up with the kind of needs I will have.
Falcran Falcran
41-45, M
May 9, 2012