I've Got No Other Choice, But To Move On.

You know what I hate? Being led on by someone I thought was actually interested.

Why in the world would anyone want to keep a relationship a secret? Why? What makes you think it’s okay to make other people think you’re single, when in reality you’re with someone. If you’re with someone wouldn’t you want to show them off? Now I feel like a wh*re, cause here I was flirting with a guy I thought was single when all along he had a girlfriend and he never told me. I actually had to find out by one of his friends. It really devastated me. I catch myself thinking about him a lot, and it destroys me, cause now it's like I don't exist. We don't talk and I'm finding it hard to let go. I know that by not talking to him is the first step to moving on, since I have to completely erase him from my life, but eventually I'll have to see him and it's going to be hard. Super hard. I know that in the end it'll be worth it and all, but right now I'm finding it quite impossible. I want nothing more that to just be happy again and not think about him. I hate how I became attached and now I have to act like being ignored doesn't bother me and I'm completely okay, when in reality I'm hoping his name will pop up when my phone goes off. Moving on is my only choice right now, since in order to stop this hurting I need to let go. I refuse to go back. My feelings are not a toy. I just wish moving on was easier. I hope facing him wont bring back emotions, cause I need to stay strong and move forward..