Moving From Louisiana To Oregon

I'm extremely nervous about this trip. It should be coming up within the next month. My name is Ana, I'm eighteen years old, and I'll be moving half-way across the country. I just graduated from high school this year, and I have zero job experience. I will say this... I am moving for selfish reasons, which (when thinking about it) might just be the right reasons. I've had a boyfriend for over two years now and he's been living in Oregon since we started dating. Long-distance relationships are hard, but in April I got to meet him face-to-face for the first time. It was natural. It was, to me, as natural as breathing and being with him so intimately made me extremely happy. My home life in Louisiana isn't all it's cracked up to be, though there will be people that I will miss. Mostly, my amazing friends and my younger sister. My parents might cause a twinge every now and again, but it won't be much.

His parents are amazing people and I know that they care for me as much as I care for them. They've been exceedingly generous and good to me by offering to pay for my airline ticket. Plus, they spend over a thousand dollars bringing him and themselves out here. I have agreed most happily to pay them back for this "loan". They've secured for me a job and.. At their place I will also be paying them some rent every month, so it isn't as if I'm free-loading. As soon as the date of June 9th (particularly important to me) passes, I will find myself on board a plane headed for a state I have no knowledge of. I'm nervous. Not only because I'm leaving my comfort zone, a small town in Louisiana, but because of the people I am leaving behind. I am afraid that I will be so caught up in this change of pace and scenery that I will not be able to converse with them as much as I used to. Part of me is terrified to leave them, but the other part of me is rather happy. 

I have always preached about getting out of my parent's home and still wish desperately to do so, but... How will this trip change myself and my ideals? And, furthermore, there is always the possibility that my current boyfriend and I will not make it in the years to come. This scares me. I care for him, love him, very dearly. He is very much apart of me. I am also worrying about college, and what taking a year or so off from it will mean for me. Also, I am also scared I won't be able to get out of the working world and return to college. But you know what they say about the too-distant future.. One must not get too caught up in it, or stagnancy will begin to approach. I'm well-learned, I'm witty, intelligent, I'm a rather decent conversationalist.. What is there in this world that I cannot do? I do not think that I will let life hinder my progress.
Ellana Ellana
18-21, F
May 22, 2012