I Want To Believe Again. Help Me.

To those who are reading my story, peace be upon you.

Well, although I was brought into this world a Muslim, I think that after all the things I have done, I can hardly consider myself a Muslim. As of now, I'd consider myself an atheist and I really do want to find my way back into Islam. Here are the things I have done in which has made me come to the conclusion that I am not worthy of Islam:

-I have dabbled in Satanism.

-I drink.

-I do not fast.

-I do not pray five times a day.

- I detest  Allah.

-I do not respect my elders.

-I have got a tattoo.

-I have told many of my friends that I am not Muslim.

To my once Brothers and Sisters reading this story, I seek your help. Although I still sin, tell people I am not Muslim and have a shaky belief in Allah, something tells me that Islam is the right religion and I want to find my way back to the right path. I need your help. Your advice is greatly appreciated. 

Kusak Kusak
18-21, M
14 Responses Jul 28, 2010

you do know that in Islam when someone no longer desire being a Muslim they have three days for being back a Muslim and people advising them,when the three days are over and he didnt come back to Islam they kill him? it is a little bit crewel but just reminding :) <br />
if your wondering from were the source,i study it at school

salam,<br />
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dear kusak, Alhamdulliah Allah has opened up yr heart n make u realize. <br />
ask help from Allah. Beg to him, cry in your dua, Allah loves you. He listens to you. <br />
n never give up hope in yr dua. Allah will test us & make us wait. thats wht he does 2 teach patience & preseverence & strengthen us, so tht we will be a better servant 2 him. Learn more about Islam & live yr life according 2 it. Insyaalah, Allah will guide u 2 the right path. He is all powerful, all knowing, all understanding, all knowing. rely on Allah. <br />
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im also struggling in my own path. =) may Allah help all of us, Ameen.<br />
one more thing, try 2 stay away from those things tht can make u go astray.

i want to revert to islam and i 16, but i kind of like both genders.. what should i do.. im from new zealand

salam. dear lorsto, as u learn more about Islam, Insyaallah u may find solution 2 all yr prblm. i hope u will revert 2 islam as soon as possible. make shahadah, n find people who can help u wht ths. i pray, may Allah guide all of us 2 the right path. and im sorry, my words r not as good as my thoughts. hope 2 hear frm u soon.

just remember, never rush anything, try and understand the concepts

My own journey has taught me that once you open a window to the netherworld, you have loosed many demons to weaken your God within, that is why you cant find him. The many sins you have committed very easily is because of that open window.<br />
My friend, close the window, and ask your Allah to forgive you. Never sin again and ask God to send you helpers. They will come with sincerety. Get down on the floor and beg forgiveness.<br />
You will recover from sins insanity. Best wishes.

Allah swt is all forgiving and merciful and He forgives whoever He will. <br />
Make one step toward him and He makes ten strides toward you.<br />
Seek Him and you will find Him.

To: echo101, Wackypunk, amiraa, OldSoulYoungBody, abidallah.<br />
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Thank you so much! I truly appreciate your advice and words of encouragement. I will do my best in the pursuit of the right path and will heed all the advice you guys have given me! <br />
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Regards<br />

Asallam peace to you,<br />
Man is created for more nobel purpose than indulgence and frivolous activities and there is a light that is illuminated only by the following truth,it is of the lights of Allah swt that has been intrusted in the heart of the believers.<br />
It is a blessing to have islam and be a muslim,for truly great strengh and inner peace are found,were are we going and what is are purpose?<br />
Hold on to the rope of Allah swt Repent and know that we will all be Accountable and jugded for are actions,i believe in you and believe in the mercy of Allah swt and i believe in you.<br />
Always and forever your sister in islam...xoxoxox

If you wish to get re-connected with yout belife and God, then you have a direct line to Allah, all you have to do is, clean yourself up(no drinking, fornicating, satanisme etc) and start doing what Islam says you should do (pray, fast, be a good citizen etc) and remember, as long as you repent and TRY, your already worthy and on a good way, keep your head up, aint no sin that can't be forgiven as long as you breath, so ask and you shall recieve ;)...perfection is not expected, but it is expected that you make an effort and keep trying to stay on the straight path....

First, always remember this verse:<br />
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قُلْ يَا عِبَادِيَ الَّذِينَ أَسْرَفُوا عَلَى أَنفُسِهِمْ لَا تَقْنَطُوا مِن رَّحْمَةِ اللَّهِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ يَغْفِرُ الذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًا إِنَّهُ هُوَ الْغَفُورُ الرَّحِيم (سورة الزمر:53) ُ <br />
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39:53 qul yaa 'Ibaadiyal-ladhiyna asrafuu 'Alaa anfusihim laa taqnaTuu mir raHmatil-laah* in-nal-laaha yagfirudh dhunuuba jamiy'AA* in-nahuu huwal gafuurur raHiym <br />
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[39:53] Proclaim: "O My servants who exceeded the limits, never despair of GOD's mercy. For GOD forgives all sins. He is the Forgiver, Most Merciful." <br />
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Second!<br />
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Just recite this verse 100 times: <br />
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وَذَا النُّونِ إِذ ذَّهَبَ مُغَاضِبًا فَظَنَّ أَن لَّن نَّقْدِرَ عَلَيْهِ فَنَادَى فِي الظُّلُمَاتِ أَن لّا إِلَهَ إِلاَّ أَنتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ فَاسْتَجَبْنَا لَهُ وَنَجَّيْنَاهُ مِنَ الْغَمِّ وَكَذَلِكَ نُنجِي الْمُؤْمِنِين ... سورة الانبياء 87<br />
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21:87 wa dhan-nuuni idh dhahaba mugaaDiban fa Zan-na al lan naqdira 'Alayhi fa naadaa fiZ Zulumaati al-laa ilaaha il-laa anta subHaanaka in-niy kuntu minaZ Zaalimiyn <br />
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[21:87] And Zan-Noon (Jonah, "the one with an `N' in his name"), abandoned his mission in protest, thinking that we could not control him. He ended up imploring from the darkness (of the big fish's belly): "There is no god other than You. Be You glorified. I have committed a gross sin." <br />
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I mean just recite this: -laa ilaaha il-laa anta subHaanaka in-niy kuntu minaZ Zaalimiyn!<br />
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Any help just jump and send me and keep in touch ^_^

assalam-o-alaikum<br />
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if you want to revert to islam, you just need to pull yourself together and apologize to Allah or do Tobah, in other words.<br />
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When you say that you are not "worthy" for islam, there is nothing such as being that. you just need to be a bit confident and stick to the rules.<br />
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@groplup: Allah is not a MAN, thanks for your educated and well worded opinion.<br />
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and Kusak, echo is right.Ramadan is approaching and you should try fasting.It could also help you with your drinking. If you have a problem, we're here for you.

Assalam-u-alaykum brother, <br />
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It takes a lot more then just courage to admit that you are wronged. <br />
May I ask you a question what stops you from fasting and praying?<br />
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Ramadan is approaching to me thats like training course, So I would suggest you pull up your sleeves and get to work!<br />
You know my sister always says this to me, “One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.” <br />
Hope this helped, if you have any further questions I will be willing to answer and if I don't have answers I'll search for them.

Well Satanism is a load of garbage. Allah was a con man just like jesus. Sounds like you want to be a humanist. A humanist believes that everything they do has a human has consequences to their actions. Guilt is a wonderful tool of all religions. They scare you about the one thing that every human faces and that is death. Don't be scared of death. It is just the circle of all beings on the planet. Once you realize that you won't hate yourself anymore and you won't have to believe in doctrine. Islam is just one of the many doctrines that make people feel better about screwing other people However, if you are fishing for sicko terrorist islam bullshit go to a mosque.

HAHAHA. I am seeking enlightenment dude. Anyway. It says Carpe Diem. (: