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i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened, yet all i want to do is get rid of me. i hate feeling like this.
gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 16 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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A man should uplift himself by his own self, so let him not weaken this self. For this self is the friend of oneself, and this self is the enemy of oneself.

The self (the active part of our nature) is the friend of the self, for him who has conquered himself by this self. But to the unconquered self, this self is inimical, (and behaves) like (an external) foe.

~ Bhagavad Gita

http://en.wikisource.org/wiki/The_Complete_Works_of_Swami_Vivekananda/Volume_2/Work_and_its_Secret

Sounds like you fall into peer pressure. Self confidence is the key :)

#Been there done that.

Hi there! I know a place where you learn to love yourself and enjoy life. Above this you also rehabilitate yourself from using drugs. Let me know if you're interested. I would be glad to help you, because I had a similar experience, but this place helped and now I am happy :)

Write me back!

I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I FEEL WORTHLESS TOO. I HURT MYSELF ALL THE TIME AND THE ONLY PLEASURE I GET IN LIFE IS OVERDOSING ON PERCOCET AND ANY OTHER NARCOTICS I CAN GET. NORMAL PEOPLE DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IT IS LIKE TO HATE YOURSELF SO MUCH THAT ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS DIE. I WISH I COULD TELL YOU THAT LIFE IS WORTH IT BUT SOMETIMES IT REALLY ISN'T. WE HAVE TO BE OUR OWN FAN, WE HAVE TO ENCOURAGE OURSELVES AND FIND A REASON TO LIVE. MY REASON IS MY 13 YEAR OLD SON, IF I DIDN'T HAVE HIM I WOULDN'T BE AROUND THATS FOR SURE. I WISH I COULD MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER I REALLY DO BECAUSE LIKE YOU I FEEL LIKE I HAVE BEEN LIVING IN HELL FOR 40 YEARS.

There must be a lot of pain that you dare not feel. I found energy psychology the best help in cleaning out my stored pain. Look for something that works to heal you. You will find it, even if it takes time.

Good luck

We all destroy ourselves to some degree. We all hate some part, some aspect, some trait of ourselves, our personality, our behavior. However, not everyone can deal with it as well as others. I hate myself for a countless number of reasons. Yet everyone around me loves me, and who I am. As I despise myself, abuse drugs and alcohol, fuel myself through hate and lies, I realize how ****** up I am. Though so much of me just doesn't care. You can only change if you're willing. Realizing you have a problem is not the first step. Caring that you have a problem is.

I can understand how you feel



but it is not easy to change yourself overnight but remmeber to remind yourself that "yes i can do this"

dont ever let negtive self-talk push you down.



Make shedules and change life in stages (you don't need to learn this from anything, the knowledge of doing this is built into you, so just search it there).



You will find answers to all your questions here:



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g4y6GuexZ58

I know how you feel. I smoked alot and i decided to cut down on it and switching to lighter ones and it has helped alot with stress. I cut down drinking alot too and only really drink on the weekends with friends and just have a few drinks. I also have been taking vitamins and trying to cut down fatty foods as well. You can do this it was hard for me but i kept with it and it does make you feel better. Just take one thing at a time. If you think about it how will it effect us in the long run? I do hope things get better for you if you ever want to talk im here just know you are not alone.

I truly understand where you are coming from. I'm starting to unravel and I am scared. I hope you find what you need.

you can admitt how you are feeling and im sorry you feel like this.

i stay in control on what i eat, try and watch what you do. the smoking issue, when you see them, throw them away, with the drinking, im sorry i dont know what to say about that.

I feel you. I am the biggest self-sabotager I have ever met.

you admit that you do these things yet you continue to do them without stopping.



I am guilty of the same behavior- overeating mostly and then wanting to beat myself up for it later, but I am completely in control of how much I eat and no matter what excuses I try to use , (im depressed, mad, etc) it's all my own fault.

Join the club i am in the same boat as you except i cant drink to save my life,at the moment i am waiting on a in patient detox to try and get myself together,but its going to be hard but its got to be done as i am 29 and i aint getting any younger,my partner dont understand the fact i need to get myself together and i need time to do it but i always say the wrong thing so we fall out alot and then it does my head in so i use to try and block the way i am feeling out,along with what ever is on my mind also my life is upside down,and i hate planing i take things as they come,some days are bad and hard to deal with,but my life is one big battle but it keeps me on my toes,we can help each other if things are geting to you drop me a line ha ha,we all get to the stage when life becomes unbearable thats just life for you,hang in there,and roll with it.

I'm sorry.

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July 23rd, 2007 at 01:54AM

I was the same way using heroin, pcp cocaine etc. Using like I wanted to die I did one time thank god when my friend who rooled me out of his car at an emergency room listened to the crys of a EMT standing outside who said we can not save him unless we know what drug he is on this turned out to be true for I was dead already. I cleaned up at the age of 26 and am now 51 do not know how the **** I made it to this age.I still put myself down all the time my parents use to take care of this for me only till I was 16 years old this is when I coped my first habit and told to leave my house this I gladly did but had no clue what was to happen. I looked back and realized how good I had it even with physical and verbal abuse. I always would looked at the source. These things come from parents with a very warped perception of what kids need . My brother stayed and he now is a anti personality



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Wow..hang in there girlie. I also do these things. But you are stronger than you think, you are here sharing your pain. Its the first step to taking back your life. If you wanna talk, I m here all the time.