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Dark Skin, Dark Hair, and Light Eyes! Curse?

     Sometimes when I go places I get stared at and I feel uncomfortable.  I just feel like I don't belong in this body of mine, like I am waiting for the better place.  I don't socialize too much.  I do my business and go home.  I used to pack a good source of heat... I've been attacked several times.  I don't anymore.  I'm going south, I don't think I have to worry about that anymore!!!  My fear was that I would shoot someone accidentally.  Or even worse, someone really **** me off, and I just blow their head off  with the pull of a trigger.  No fears, and no more "pissed"  I let those things go.

                         (Indian + German, watch out, lol)

     Being cherokee and taking mostly after those genes, I have such good senses, I can sometimes sense things before they happen.  I get severely sick to my stomach.  Predictions ! I don't want them!!!  But I get them!!!  Curse?  Gift?  I don't know.

     My skin tone gets very super dark on its own in the summer.  I love the beach, and live close by...

      I arrived on a beach a few years ago and an ethnic man approached me and asked me if I was black.I told him I'm Cherokee Indian among German, but God knows whats way back..............who cares, I thought.  But he insisted I am black, I said, ok, I'm black!!!  Shut up already!

     I could only trace my relatives from 1850.  The Indian side is really hard to trace because they all died so young ~ and my Indian Gramma didn't have parents, they got killed when she was born.  Her brothers and sisters all mostly died of   She grew up in a nasty orphanage in the 1920's, and the workers would throw old nasty candy at all the kids and say, "Here's your Christmas gift".  What a life of hell she lived, she was glad to go at age 40, I can bet.

I really wished I could have remembered her ~ much like me, very dark, hair dresser, like me, same name and all. She had a love for children, like me too.  See you in Heaven, Gramma!

     If I could go back in time, I would have rather lived in the years of no technology, living off the land, the olden days.  Ask an 80 yr old to turn on a computer, LOL, they'd prob say, whats a computer???????? 

     I still have vouchers for the food my gramma had to buy in WW2.  I also have her hair license.  I cherish those things.

     REGARDLESS of race, I see all the same.  Created in God's Image.

Neveah Neveah 16-17, F 34 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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Loved this.

I feel the same way.I get stared at by mexicans alot in my apartment complex. It really gets me mad. /:(<br />
I'm Cherokee and I get it from my dads side of the family. I feel ya girl!

Interesting

Neveah<br />
hi i read your post.<br />
i was adopted and my real mom was cherokee and dad german.i never met them but i was told i had brothers and sisters and i never met them.<br />
i was born with dark skin like you and i get very dark if i go out in the sun.yeah i look black too.<br />
i have dark hair and dark eyes.<br />
i am 49 years old.<br />
i cant look into my ancestry too find out who is in my background.but i like you look black when i am very dark tanned and people could say that like this man commented to you.<br />
too me i would be happy to learn i had black in me.<br />
love to hear from you<br />
god bless<br />
ebonyivory<br />
greybabby@aol.com

Neveah,<br />
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I am new to this site, but I have read your post. I would sincerely like to talk to you about your post. However, I would much rather do it through e-mail. I understand what you are talking about. I have much experience in this. Believe me! Here is my e-mail address. Please contact me there, <br />
jamie_wcps@yahoo.com <br />
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I do not have any Cherokee blood in me, but Chief Logan is my ancestor! So I do have Native American blood. And we ALL bleed red!<br />
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Love and light,<br />
Jamie<br />
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P.S. Those who do not understand and/or have no experience in psychic abilities should NOT comment about this topic....YoNa! Psychic abilities have nothing to do with any particular nationality/race! Everyone is born with these abilities. Maybe you should be open minded about them so that you can be able to use YOURS!!!!!!

keep on posting because I love hearing about what they went through. I guess I am a new ager. But if someone even tries to hurt anyone in my family my blood BOILS. That is just the way I am. I've already knocked people out for saying one word to my kids ! Of course that was yrs ago. My daughter is 95lbs and not one person looks at her wrong. She took down a 6 and a half ft tall kid in the lunch room of her school when she was 16, put him in the hospital, and I got the fine.<br />
It was OK because he tried to rape her. Instead of going to the authorities she kicked his A$$. <br />
He deserved it and it was money well spent and although I never promoted violence, thats just the way she has always been.<br />
~noone messes with her~

hey DC is exactly right. you know before european contact our ways on fairness and stuff was jacked up. it was eye for an eye. you was even allowed to kill a person of another family if they killed someone from yours. and i used the word allowed. ALLOWED. so it was acceptable to do this. you know i really don't understand why these new agers and fakers thought that indians were peaceful people back in the day. they were mean and brutal as hell!! i just don't get

Shai, thats a bunch of bull. It IS Cherokee blood that makes you Cherokee. <br />
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The heart of a Cherokee isn't always peaceful by the way. Thats more of a New Age fantasy belief. Back in the day, Cherokee Warriors would be ready to throw down at the spur of the moment if other NDNS or whites encroached on their territory. We also had a blood revenge way of taking care of business.

i dont understand why you guys are bashing her? some people have predictions indian or not.. that doesnt make her a fake, maybe she does sense things, because of her blood. a lot of people who have special senses their parents have them too.

all I know is I have a generous heart with blood that turns very red sometimes my face turns purple! <br />
lol

hey shai, my cherokee grandma taught me its the blood that makes you cherokee. lol.

My Cherokee Granmother taught me that it's not in the blood that makes you Cherokee, it's the heart. The heart of a Cherokee is peaceful, generous to a fault sometimes and always teaching....Thinking about others and not themselves. <br />
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It is true though, that there are people who call themselves shamans and charge and do harm to people in the name of Cherokee and other tribes, like Lakota. A true Cherokee or Lakota don't use those name.<br />
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It's mostly new age people who claim to have dreams of Indians, and think they are one.<br />
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My Granmother also taught that all we need is in our heart, So seek within your heart, the heart never lies.

Its ok. I completely understand why he may be touchy on the subject. I don't get upset and wish him the best. Its nice to see you again!

hey neveah.....yona probably wont comment again ...he is very elusive ....hard to engage in a conversation.....

I agree and I get a kick out of your comments Yona. stay who you are! I get good laughs from it! Your comments enlighten my day!

your not mean yona just pissed off..and you have many reasons to be so

dang am i that mean? lol. well i guess i don't mean to be but i guess i'm too blunt some times. lol.

LOL!!!!!!!!!

now i know u r my compatriot to some extent..lol

I didn't read yet, but I will. I just had a sense of hurt for him. Just because his words were harsh, and I'm sure the things that people are doing do make him angry. Thats understandable. Sometimes people feel better when they hit targets like me, I'm a good one...... I'll sit back and listen with kind words. Call me this, call me that, I don't care.<br />
There's so much hurt in the world, I wish I could make a difference in it!!!!!<br />
xoxo

im so glad ..sometimes its hard to find the right words<br />
draggingcanoe is more tender with his words where yona just puts it straight on the line....you can't blame him..he has just had enough of profiteers and their false tribes....<br />
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you may be interested to read some of his stories about the true cherokee nations and those who make false claims to its tribal heritage...it may help you understand where yona is coming from.<br />
cheers

jinda~ your comment made me cry. For once in my life, someone truely understood what I was saying. I've always felt as if I never belonged here , being this earth. These people. But I think you understood what I was saying, and thank you for that. I don't belong. Anywhere. I've never known why exactly I feel like that.<br />
My spirit is good. I don't let anyone hurt me as I feel the pain from others as YoNa, and those that come down on me so harshly. But its ok, I don't mind. <br />
Thank you, you really blessed my night!

jinda~ your comment made me cry. For once in my life, someone truely understood what I was saying. I've always felt as if I never belonged here , being this earth. These people. But I think you understood what I was saying, and thank you for that. I don't belong. Anywhere. I've never known why exactly I feel like that.<br />
My spirit is good. I don't let anyone hurt me as I feel the pain from others as YoNa, and those that come down on me so harshly. But its ok, I don't mind. <br />
Thank you, you really blessed my night!

hi yona and draggingcanoe...remember me... the thorn in your side, the blackfella from australia....well im actually a granma...but thats what we call ourselves here eh ...blackfellas.......<br />
i understand why comments like these are so offensive to you....and you have a right to be upset ......there are so many fakes out there that profit from your culture....same here but not to the extreme that your people are having to endure.<br />
but ...with all the respect to you ...i just wish that you would lighten up on the ones who don't know any better ...enlighten them yes please do ...but don't crush their spirit ....<br />
us fellas here believe in our ancestral spirits ...we have our spirit guides.....it doesnt matter if you are brought up white ...your ancestral spirit is with you your thoughts and feelings are tribal nomatter how hard the whitefellas try to drive it out of you ...they can't it is too strong ......<br />
and your spirit guide will lead you back home to your people and your lands....<br />
if our spirit is strong and brings us home...we are so welcomed back...tears are shed as the children come home no matter how many generations old the ancestor is....<br />
what im trying to say is that i know how strong the great ancestral spirits of your homelands are and these fellas who are unfortunate to have been bred into the whitefellas still have their ancestral spirits with them....<br />
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they are in limbo..a torturous place where they don't fit into either world....they don't want anything they just need some sort of verification why they feel this way....<br />
some one to understand their confusion and acknowledge their existance <br />
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neveah...i'm lucky i live in a safe place .....i hope you get out of there <br />
sweetie keep your spirit up and stay true to your feelings<br />
im sure your dear granma is with you....listen to her and she will guide you and keep you safe.......<br />
cheers

I can understand your frustrations. I've not ventured out or anything. I really wanted to know about family history. I'm kind of scared of people.<br />
I've been so busy nowadays I've six kids ~ gonna be a grandma in a month.<br />
So I may never know what my family went through.<br />
Thank u, for your advice, I really appreciate it!!!

I can understand your frustrations. I've not ventured out or anything. I really wanted to know about family history. I'm kind of scared of people.<br />
I've been so busy nowadays I've six kids ~ gonna be a grandma in a month.<br />
So I may never know what my family went through.<br />
Thank u, for your advice, I really appreciate it!!!

I can understand your frustrations. I've not ventured out or anything. I really wanted to know about family history. I'm kind of scared of people.<br />
I've been so busy nowadays I've six kids ~ gonna be a grandma in a month.<br />
So I may never know what my family went through.<br />
Thank u, for your advice, I really appreciate it!!!

I can understand your frustrations. I've not ventured out or anything. I really wanted to know about family history. I'm kind of scared of people.<br />
I've been so busy nowadays I've six kids ~ gonna be a grandma in a month.<br />
So I may never know what my family went through.<br />
Thank u, for your advice, I really appreciate it!!!

Neveah,<br />
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I don't live in a Cherokee community in Oklahoma and I can't really say I've lived a horrible life like your grandma did. I don't even know myself everything there is to know about Cherokee ways. <br />
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But I try to learn from real Cherokees that do know. Not converted hippies and New Agers named Standing Bear that walk around with braided hair dyed jet black and bone chocker necklaces on that claim to "walk the red road"<br />
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Well, if you do want to learn Cherokee ways. Be careful, cause theres a lot of Cherokee frauds out there and its really insulting and embarassing to see my fellow Cherokee people misrepresented like they are by these people.

DraggingCanoe ~ its ok to come down on me. Do I REALLY wanna know what the TRUE culture is about? I've not lived it. Maybe you did ~ I don't know, but from what I understand ~ its a rough life. I never meant to offend anyone with my story. My grandmother lived a HORRIBLE life. She died a horrible death. She was Cherokee, and thats pretty much what I know. <br />
The name was Hightower. <br />
That, I do know. I'd love to live on a real Cherokee community, just to see what its like. My heart would probably break. :(.