Dark Skin, Dark Hair, and Light Eyes! Curse?
Sometimes when I go places I get stared at and I feel uncomfortable. I just feel like I don't belong in this body of mine, like I am waiting for the better place. I don't socialize too much. I do my business and go home. I used to pack a good source of heat... I've been attacked several times. I don't anymore. I'm going south, I don't think I have to worry about that anymore!!! My fear was that I would shoot someone accidentally. Or even worse, someone really **** me off, and I just blow their head off with the pull of a trigger. No fears, and no more "pissed" I let those things go.
(Indian + German, watch out, lol)
Being cherokee and taking mostly after those genes, I have such good senses, I can sometimes sense things before they happen. I get severely sick to my stomach. Predictions ! I don't want them!!! But I get them!!! Curse? Gift? I don't know.
My skin tone gets very super dark on its own in the summer. I love the beach, and live close by...
I arrived on a beach a few years ago and an ethnic man approached me and asked me if I was black.I told him I'm Cherokee Indian among German, but God knows whats way back..............who cares, I thought. But he insisted I am black, I said, ok, I'm black!!! Shut up already!
I could only trace my relatives from 1850. The Indian side is really hard to trace because they all died so young ~ and my Indian Gramma didn't have parents, they got killed when she was born. Her brothers and sisters all mostly died of She grew up in a nasty orphanage in the 1920's, and the workers would throw old nasty candy at all the kids and say, "Here's your Christmas gift". What a life of hell she lived, she was glad to go at age 40, I can bet.
I really wished I could have remembered her ~ much like me, very dark, hair dresser, like me, same name and all. She had a love for children, like me too. See you in Heaven, Gramma!
If I could go back in time, I would have rather lived in the years of no technology, living off the land, the olden days. Ask an 80 yr old to turn on a computer, LOL, they'd prob say, whats a computer????????
I still have vouchers for the food my gramma had to buy in WW2. I also have her hair license. I cherish those things.
REGARDLESS of race, I see all the same. Created in God's Image.