I Need To Grow The Balls To Go!

I am stressing out so bad right now, and I know that it is not good for my unborn child. As I sit in this hotel room, trying to work up the nerve to go see my sick mother that has never wanted me, I just keep thinking how stupid I am for actually coming back to this god awful place, for thinking that my mother would actually want to see me. I am here so I need to go. I am to the point where I think I need to get high to be able to face her again, but thats the old me talking, the new me knows that I have to do this and do it sober. I just need to grow some balls and walk over there. I have been thinking what I would say when I get there, I just am scared I will say something that wiil offened her. I dont want to hurt I just want to let her know how I feel about her and why I do..
imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
18-21, F
1 Response May 11, 2012

You do not need to get high, you do not have an offending message, you just go and see her, tell her that you love her. Just say 'Hi mom'