Change17 years of being with the same man two children cats, dogs............ Now me alone. Eating myself to the point of no return. I made the decision to leave a beautiful home, a man who is awesome at providing, two beautiful teenagers, and the cats. They are all together. I took the dogs and the vehicle and ran. I couldn't live lethargic anymore we couldn't decide on what we wanted in the end it was yeah What ever! There were no pictures on the walls no desire just lumps. I felt like a lump I couldn't think anymore I didn't want to do anything.
Now I live in a one bedroom apartment with my two dogs and live in fear! How do I take care of me was I crazy to leave??? This is seperation # 2. I am not happy with him I do not want to be with him but yet he is all I know......... How will I get through this without going stark raving mad??? I do not know?
I love my dogs they get me out, they make me responsible otherwise I would be hiding in my apartment and crying and not ever leaving.
I know there is something better out there for me I know I must let go but I truly am having a very difficult time. My kids are amazing they knew it was coming and one of them seems to be dealing with it very well the other not so well. It is hard with out them but yet easier knowing that they are ok.
Anyone else out there experiencing crazy making tooooo??? Looking for support and a friend!
LadyGwen 36-40, F 8 Responses 0 Dec 9, 2007