I have recently decided to file for divorce after 26 years of marriage and an actual 30 year relationship. Due to my love for him, my faith in God, and my values to keep my vows, I have not done so sooner. I still love my husband very much but cannot share him with another woman any longer. He has chosen not to end a 9 year affair but does not want to make to decision to end us. I tried to keep my family as normal as possible for our grandsons but cannot do it any longer. My heart is breaking. This is not what I want but what I have to do. It's such a struggle and painful.