How Can I Be Me Again?
My husband of 11 years told me yesterday that "it wasn't there for him anymore". He had been lying to me for months and had now found someone new that made him happy. We were married at 20 which is young I know but I always felt it was the real thing. The kind of love that everyone wants but rarely ever gets. I was totally blind sided and now I am left to console my to your girls while he plays happy house with the new woman and her two kids. How do I explain to my 9 year old that Daddy not only left us, but he is now someone else's Daddy. How do I explain to my 3 year old that Daddy isn't going to be home for dinner, ever again.
I was truely, madly, deeply in love with this guy and now I feel I didn't know him at all. How do I keep going? How do I find myself again? I have asked everyone I know and no one can tell me. How do I morn the death of my heart and soul. How do I deal with the loss of my best friend? I am breathing and medicated but dazed and wounded. How long does it take to walk around with out crying.
It wasn't all roses but we always vowed that we would work together through anything. Until now that is.