4 weeks ago I was at my husband's bedside, he was unconscious and he could not wake, I sat with him all night talking to him, kissing him and holding his hand. I asked him if I could take a lock of his hair, I explained that his hair needed cutting and reminded him that we had spoken about having his hair cut, the nurse gave me some hair scissors, I took the hair and placed it a envelope to kept for ever more.
Throughout the night I kept my vigil by him, it was the hardest thing I have ever done. He died at 9.07 in the morning.
Since then I have been devastated what do I do now? We were married nearly 50 years and I loved him with all my heart, he was taken too soon, we still needed time together.
Today I am frozen in side, and suddenly the ice melts and the floodgates open and I am on the floor.
I will never be able to move forward because I don't want to, I only want to join him.
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70+, F
2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

I feel the same way my honey
And I were together 20years
Like my twin

Beautifully written. He will thank you for being there.. He didn't want to leave you alone.. He couldn't hold on any longer he's sorry. He misses you too..