Grew Up Too Fast, And Then Things Get Worse

Hello there, thank you for your interest..back drop before the events that lead up too my psyche destruction... My mother is a drunk, so is my dad. So I ended up leaving home at a young age to escape from the drunken bs. dropped out out high school so I could work full time and live on my own.
Fast forward a few years and I ended up with kids from 2002,2003, & 2004...raised them from infants..till the state took them away...the cps people were bias about how they treated Me and my case, but I still did everything they asked of me..even above and beyond...so, they got adopted after I fought for a year straight..to only be denied my rights...I'm still traumatized after this..itsalmost like they are dead...butt worse.no closure.and nothing I can do, can't hear their voices or even know their ok! Then maybe I could sleep!((maybe))