I feel so guilty that I coulnd't be a good son to my parents. we lived in such poverty that they can't afford a failure like me. and I am ashamed of myself. I see people some successful people who take care of their parents and financial problems. but I am a burden.
I wanted them to be a proud of me. It's not that I didn't try. I tried but always failed. things just don't work. Maybe, I am destined to be failure. Serving our parents is the greatest good thing we can do in this life but I have even failed in this. I am sad because I will never get this chance again.
Those who get this honor are extremely lucky.If there is any life after death, I wish to be born to same parents. and I want to give them all the happiness they deserve. I want to repay their love, want to be a good son they can be proud of. I just want their forgiveness. but I don't think I deserve it. There were lot of expectations from me. They thought I was going to be different. but I failed them.