When I confirmed my now ex-wife had been cheating on me (with multiple men) I wasn't angry or jealous about that. I was angry about all the other betrayals she committed and lies she told trying to cover it up.

I'm still trying to grasp what this means for me.

I know I get feel emotion for people I have sex with so FWB doesn't work well, except in certain circumstances.

I know I'm still unable to trust someone enough to let them in right now.
Maybe I'll never know the answer until I get back into a relationship.

The realization is changing the way I view myself. I thought I was one thing, but maybe I'm something else. I've only felt what I think of as jealousy once in my life.

ausofbounds ausofbounds
46-50, M
Aug 21, 2014