I really would rather be alone anymore than with people that are only interested in using me. I used to be the type of person who was so afraid of losing friends and needed so badly to be accepted that I would kiss people's ***** to get them to stay in my life.
Now, I don't much care. I am FINALLY starting to realize that I am a giving, loving person and if people don't respond to that, I don't need them.
This is not to say that I am totally self confident now. I don't think I will ever be and deep inside, I will always long for the acceptance I feel I have never gotten.
But I am finally learning that it's ok to stand alone, sometimes even preferred.