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Im 16 And Dont Have A Problem With Older People To An Extent.

By: ithoughtidied
Written on January 28th, 2013
OK so i am only 16 but have been doing bad things since i was 13 and i cant seem to stop when i get the chance, but i can say NO, even when everyone says i cant at least i know i can. so i just want everyone to know that just because you like to do something don't mean that you are addicted to it! and don't mean you are a hoe or a ****. so don't let any one tell you other wise!!!
By: ithoughtidied
Age: 16-17 , Female
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14 responses
  • rjschoch
    rjschoch

    I agree with you

    Mar 24
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  • Palasbond007
    Palasbond007

    Concentrate on your studies and your carrier ....don't waste your time doing this stuff....you'll sure get time for this later.....

    Jan 31
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  • YB01
    YB01

    Ok.

    Let me share some psychology 101 stuff with you.

    A. Background

    About eight years ago I started mentoring / counselling men who had been sexually abused in their childhood. This had led to secretive behaviours on their part, and then addictions.

    My hearing of the harm done to these men led me to wonder how wide spread it might be.

    My looking at web sites, discussions with therapists, and confidential discussions with men and women who were sexual abuse survivors continued for several years.

    Now I am not a trained therapist.

    No, I was not sexually abused myself. My childhood was very disruptive because we moved around many times, and we left the USA when I was 13. Lived in Switzerland, then Hong Kong, then Phillippines. So I was messed up.

    But enough of me.

    Any questions.....just ask.

    B. Cutting

    There are a number of web sites, like EP, where people who cut can visit.

    Www.sandf.org is one of them. It has a section for cutters, for partners of cutters and another as I recall for parents. In most cases there is a high correlation between sexual abuse (rape, ******, hyper sexual activity prepuberty or early puberty).

    The creator of the above site as I recall is a Dutch woman who herself is a survivor.

    You can create a profile on there and converse with others who have your patterns of behaviour, who have found tools to stop and stay stopped,and others who can't stop cutting.

    Any questions on this just ask.

    C. Therapy

    There are in many countries counsellors who run group sessions in confidence for survivors.

    One of the men I mentored on "healthy friendships" has found such a group here in Australia and asserts its been helpful to him.

    I am not telling you to get a therapist, just suggesting when you are ready you might.

    Any questions....just ask me.

    Take care. Be well.

    Jan 31
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  • YB01
    YB01

    I can't send you a private message due to your age.

    If you send me one it gets around this site restriction as I recall.

    This is to prevent harm to younger members of EP.

    Jan 30
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    • ithoughtidied
      ithoughtidied

      that is ok. if you need to you can just post it here! its ok

      Jan 30
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  • YB01
    YB01

    By the way have been to AA and or NA ?

    Jan 30
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  • YB01
    YB01

    Shall I do it here or in private messages ?

    Jan 30
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  • YB01
    YB01

    Would you like some guidance /suggestions ?

    Or are you just venting here ?

    Jan 30
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    • ithoughtidied
      ithoughtidied

      if you would like to give some then yes i will pay attention because i need all the help i need

      Jan 30
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  • YB01
    YB01

    Well what are your examples of "doing bad things" ?

    And

    What methods / tools have you tried to stop in the past ?

    Jan 29
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    • ithoughtidied
      ithoughtidied

      OK the bad things that i have done are, i lost my virginity when i was 13, i haven't been able to have a good relationship because once i get attached they leave and they only use me for sex. so i started on drugs and alcohol and i got real bad on cutting myself. and the ways i have stopped are i go for good guys now and i stopped the drugs and drinking on my own, but i am still working on the cutting.

      Jan 30
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  • YB01
    YB01

    please continue....

    are you willing to provide some examples ?

    Jan 28
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    • ithoughtidied
      ithoughtidied

      i would love to continue, but what would you like to be continued? like as in what kind of examples would you like?

      Jan 29
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