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just came home from visiting my 90 year old grandpa after his heart surgery. We talked and laughed and before I left he hugged me, told me he loved me and that if he died to not be sad...ever, because he's loved his life.
When my mom lost both of her breasts to cancer I went to visit her. She wasn't in her bed. When I headed for the Nurses Station to find her, here she came, down the hall, draggin' a tangle of tubes along with her. "Mom, WHY are you out of bed? WHERE have you BEEN?" She smiled and said she'd been to the Nursery floor...to visit the babies.
My life long friend almost lost her 50 year old husband to his second bout of cancer. She worked her full time job at the hospital and two other jobs to keep from losing their house. She continued to laugh and love and find joy every single day in life.
And on....and on...
Maybe that's part of why I have the attitude I have. I've been privileged to know extraordinary people. I've CHOSEN to have people in my life who go through the horrors of life with grace, humor and courage.
When you say life isn't worth living, when you say you want to die,when everyone you know has used you, abused you, left you, hated you,when there's NO ONE for you to call who will come?...it's YOU. YOUR attitudes, YOUR perception, YOUR bad choices, YOUR selfishness, YOUR insecurities, YOUR self hatred...YOU'VE created a life for yourself you don't feel is worth living and a life no one else wants to live with you.
I don't feel sorry for you. I don't care about you. You're a coward.
Try changing things...move forward, learn something from the things you experience...then maybe someone will really...care. 
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  | Posted Aug 27th, 2009 at 10:09PM insightful. /admires Faucon   |
 | Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 8:21AM I can relate to this story very well. I feel people expect happiness to be handed to them, that happiness is a right and not a privilege. That it shouldn't take work or effort to be happy. People, i think want someone to reach into the mud to pull them out, but with out them having to extend their arm or move closer to the edge. They feel they had to right to not be born in the mud in the first place and expect all efforts to be made by others to get them out. Not to sound corny although it will but really the pursuit to happiness, that journey, the story you have, that's what entitles you to your right of happiness. Simply converting oxygen into carbon does not cut it. |
 | Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 9:10AM Thils is a good post. All my life I have watched people struggle and fight. I most admire those who stand on their own two feet and make their lives worthwhile on their terms. These people are my heroes and inspire me. |
 Feeling sleepy | Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 9:59AM Ah now, children, children.....strength and courage are admirable--yes. But, never forget that strength and courage are sustained, only in a kind and merciful heart.......do not condemn the weak, or the fallen....... +10 nods |
 Feeling bitchy | Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 11:31AM I wasn't sure how this would be recieved, I know it sounds...cold...and it is. Thanks for the comments and to SP, my friend...as usual...I admire YOU! I DO have a merciful and kind heart. BUT there are those who are addicted to their own pain, who live with their heads up the A** of misery and revel in it. Do you really think that the energy you expend on them in kindness, the time you take to try to "understand" them and care for them...matters? NO, because they LOVE what they proclaim to hate...darkness, manipulation, pity, being the forever victim of life. |
| Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 11:54AM Yeah, I am with Faucon. I wiil gladly give support and aid to those to those who need it, but if all they live for is the attention the misery gives them, then nobody can help them. I don't think so much that it is being cold as much as it is a form of tough love. |
Feeling bitchy | Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 12:00PM Thanks lady....I've learned this from real life experience. I WAS the one who for years, took in the "tortured" of life. I WAS the one who thought kindness, help, a friend, an ear...would work. Some people just...can't...won't ever change because they don't really want to. |
 Feeling excited | Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 12:19PM "She smiled and said she'd been to the Nursery floor...to visit the babies." What immense courage and ATTITUDE! What a shining example of how to find the joy in life when life is bleak. We have to actively seek the good as it won't always be dropped in our lap. I learned a lot about happiness being a choice from the Dalai Lama's book "The Art of Happiness". If you want to win the the lottery, you have to buy a lottery ticket first. +3 nods |
| Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 12:27PM Always extend your hand....and hope they accept it. +2 nods |
 Feeling relaxed | Posted Aug 28th, 2009 at 12:27PM Hey, what a great post on a day that I needed a kick in the a$$. Sometimes I forget and start giving into the pity party. I took a deep breath, my back just straightened. Thank you for the reminder.... |
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