I Was....

For the first time in my life, these are not the terms that I use to define my life.  Something has happened which I never thought could, and that is that they have loosened their control over me.

I have been both, I have known bulimia since I was 8 years old and anorexia since I was 21 - they came in and devoured all sense of my control, my identity and my interaction in relationships.

I could never cry, I purged or starved, now I have genuine tears. And that is something I am thankful for, strangely.

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3 Responses Feb 11, 2009

That is so Good! Im proud of you. Keep up the Good Work :]

That is wonderful. The inability to cry feels so unnatural. It's so good to be able to get it out when you need to.

I'm so proud of you.<br />
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(((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))