Everyone at work likes to screw with me and try and **** me off because they think it's funny. I can take a lot of stuff. But when it goes to far there's a certain line that I can't take it anymore. One guy at work thought it was funny to spray me in the face with wax ******** which burned my face slightly and my eyes were in fire for te next 8 hours. I have also had things taken right out of my hand because they know that I can't do anything. The constant out downs about how stupid I am every single day add up. I actually find myself believing it now. I feel like a **** bag. I feel like I can't do anything. When I do fight back or defend myself they go tell in me and get me in trouble and then laugh. And that really ****** me off because I get messed with and then get in trouble for it. I am a quiet person by nature. And I know that if I react to them then I will only get into trouble. There's nothing I can do about it. I know I am not stupid but lately I start to believe what I am being told. And I never felt like this before. And I wonder if I really am as bad as they say or if it just them. I don't do anything wrong or screw things up so I don't understand where they get this from. But I can't take it anymore. I don't want to go to work. I don't want to talk or be seen when I am there. I sit in my house all night and don't hangout with anyone anymore. I just drink and watch tv until I pass out and do it again tomorrow. I have 3 years left in the service and I honestly don't know how to do it. I can't leave because they will ruin my life if I do. So the only options I can think about are try to take it, kill myself, or get dishonorably discharged and then when my life is in shambles then I'll kill myself.
thatguyoverthere93 thatguyoverthere93
22-25, M
Aug 22, 2014