I've Tried For Years............
A "Daddy's Girl", I'll never be. I'm not sure why but it seems my father just doesn't know how to be a father. At least not to me. He's a great uncle, brother, but father seems to confuse him to no end. I use to think if I was just smart enough, thin enough, pretty enough, that maybe, just maybe he'd notice me. He never did. My one flaw was I was born a girl. I guess being born a girl wasn't what he wanted. He hasn't remembered my birthday since I was born, Christmas presents, birthdays, all the special occasions when there would be something from "daddy" was my mom's doing. She didn't want me to know that he never cared enough to do those little things to celebrate my life. He just doesn't care. I've come to grips with it but it still hurts & I still find myself trying to be perfect so that no other man I love will ever find me lacking.... like my father does.
I know it's stupid, but a woman needs to know her daddy loves her. It can screw up her whole self image & the way she looks at men & the world when he doesn't acknowledge her or even care enough to spend the time getting to know her.
TO ALL THE FATHERS OUT THERE READING THIS, LOVE YOUR KIDS. SPEND TIME WITH THEM. LET THEM KNOW THAT NO MATTER WHAT MAY HAPPEN BETWEEN YOU & THEIR MOTHER, YOU WILL ALWAYS LOVE THEM. IT'S IMPORTANT......... MORE IMPORTANT THAN I CAN EVER EXPRESS THROUGH WORDS. BE THERE & ALWAYS CARE ENOUGH TO LEARN WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO THEM! THEY'RE ONLY CHILDREN FOR A SHORT TIME BUT HOW YOU DEAL WITH THEM CAN MARK THEM FOR LIFE. MAKE SURE IT'S A GOOD MARK. PLEASE!
WynsHeart 36-40, F 3 Responses 2 May 25, 2011