Yes..i'm Real

I was accused of being fake...of making up my stories to pull at peoples heart string so they will "fall for me"

This couldn't be further from the truth. Who would want a flawed imperfect person like me? It's obvious that the person who accused me of this has his own set of lies.

I'm a happily married woman. I've been married to my husband for 12 years...and I've known him for 14 years. We have 2 beautiful daughters....that take us on an adventure each and everyday.

If my username didn't give it away....I'm a sub to my husbands Dom. I have always played a submissive role....even in my girl on girl relationships. Yes...if you didn't already know I'm bi.

Years ago, before I met my husband I was with a very abusive man. He was both physically and verbally abusive towards me. I finally left him when I realized it wasn't anything I was was him.

It was because of this man I lost my third child...the son my husband and I were so excited about. I was in my second trimester when I was brutally attacked. I have a restraining order against him....but I still fear him.

This leads into the reason for my suicide attempt. After losing my son, I was devastated... and I took my cutting a little too far. I 've been cutting since I was in my early teens... it's my way of dealing with the stress and hurt I live with on a daily basis....others may numb the pain with drugs or alcohol...i cut.

I started seeing a therapist to help me deal with ....well everything.

I also work out...not going to the gym work out...I run. When I see myself in the mirror and see my scars I feel like I need do something to make me feel better about myself. So I run on my lunch hours. I don't have time to run in the morning because I have 2 kids to get ready. I don't run at night because I don't feel safe ...being alone when it's dark...SO I run during my lunch hour, when I do feel safe.

This is my true story... it's not a sob story to have people feel sorry for me. I lived this...and for people who really know me I'm not one to go looking for attention.

The reason I'm on EP is to talk to people with similar interests....people who have gone through the same experiences...people who won't judge me for what I do and what I have gone through. My husband supports me in this...he knows about me being here... even checks my profile from time to time. There are no secrets between us.

Like I always say...I'm just me...nobody special...I will be here for you if you ever need an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on.

If you want to know anything else about me...just ask me....or read my stories.

As for my pictures...yes they are really me...
Why pretend to be someone I'm not.

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10 Responses Nov 29, 2012

GOod for you for being so strong :) All women should see you as a shining example of strength and courage under fire. Sorry about your son - I had a sibling that I lost as well, so I know the feeling.

It's the only way to get to know someone inside and out - and by talking to them obviously. I'm the king of random questions so be prepared :)

mmmhmmm or you could choose not to answer them - your choice :)

perhaps, but I deal with rejection well ;)

Yes, your heart seems sooooo "in" it! lol

Oh nothing :)

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Not sure why people have to run around making accusations about others whom they know nothing about! Very nice to meet someone so genuine! You are in good company.....

you are so very special!! :-)

I believe ya...and am sorry for the pain you have endured...and that someone needed to make themselves feel better by lashing out at you...people can be such twats!

I had a feeling I did.. which is why I chose the word ****...lmfao!

That's a very nice way of saying it. I say **** 'em!

I hate ********.

That too!

I think a lot of the negative comments on this thread are silly, although I do see how people *could* think that many in this group just claim to be real, but actually aren't. Because someone says it's true makes it true? Either way, I'm not here to judge you :) +1 for being happily married - not all people are so fortunate. Best of luck in your journey forward and thanks for sharing a glimpse of your life with us!

Great response and your retort even further solidified your stance of being legit. I throw in this line of questioning on this thread quite often to watch people's reactions. The one's who berate me or my response is quite indicative of a fraudster so props to you ;)

lol nahh :p

wow, I knew I had read this, but I now I know that I only looked and didn't listen. I am very sorry for you...
rachellinhighheels? what a waste of breath...

Thank you for the history. You are a survivor. In case you haven't figured it out, everyone is flawed, everyone is imperfect that's what makes us human beings.

I try to be as truthful as possible. We are anonymous (supposedly). Why lie? It's to hard to remember what you told to who!
You have been nothing but real in the short time I've known you. That makes you special to me. You have let me cry on your shoulder, and you have answered my questions.
I certainly consider my self to be a better person for knowing you.

If you are real and respectful, it's not hard to make good friends who enrich your life. Thank you, my friend!

We know that you are real!
To hell with those people who have nothing better to do but judge!
Advice! Replace the blade with a pen, and write it out! We love you and don't want to lose you!

Hey we got your back! And front!

Peace out little sad that there are so many bullies in the world....their time will come or at least that is what I hope.....