Getting Better!

I grew up in a family where anger was taboo; I still tend to think of being cross, rather than angry.  My bottled anger comes out as acute depression.

I have had adults winding me up for weeks just to try to get me angry; I am the most patient person I know!

I was sent away to single sex boarding schools, ultra macho, where any emotion was seen as a sign of weekness; and being remorselessly bullied, day and night, I couldn't afford to give them any ammunition.

But, forty years later, I am slowly learning that it is safe, ok and normal to express my emotions, and be me.
NikkiNorris NikkiNorris
51-55, F
2 Responses Apr 13, 2011

Thanks Tenzi. Bipolar must be a bummer at times x

let your emotions go. i was in a famaly that was no allowed to show emotions and i held back tearss. sad , anger,happieness. now im bypoler. but i m slowly learning just like you to give away my emoitions and you know what it feels great. i never felt so findly feel like me. and not someone trapped inside my body.. so go ahead let it out its not a sign of weakness it a sign of been human. good luck