Unsure Of What To Do

     I am in my middle teens and right now I am with a really great guy, though for some reason I feel unsatisfied... He is really sweet, understanding, sincere, caring, kinda funny, and he's a gentleman in some ways. He's also fine with me being abstinent until I'm 19 even though he's not a virgin himself. We've been together for about a month and a half, I know that is definitely not a long time to some people but its my longest relationship so far. I've technically only dated 2 people before him, which was both only about a week. When I am really into a person I become really infatuated with them and then my feelings fade a little or all the way.

     Even with my current boyfriend my feelings are unsteady. I haven't been able to let myself live totally in the moment with him.. I think about the future a lot. I've never really been in love even though my feelings sometimes make me think I am. With him, I'm not quite sure why, but I can't picture him and I together for a long time. I am also dealing with home issues where I might more sooner or later.

     When I am with him hanging out, I'm fine, but when I'm not I start to become doubtful and over-think the time I had with him when I hung out with him.. I'm not sure if Its my fear of getting hurt again or what but I don't feel the satisfying happiness other people feel when they're not with their partner. I sadly can see myself with other people, though that might not be surprising since I have only dated to people before.

     I'm not sure if its commitment issues either but I don't know what to do since I like him a whole lot and I don't really want to break up with him. However, if I do end up moving, I will have no other choice but to break it off since we are both not very fond of the long distance type relationship. Sometimes when I am not with him I feel like we're just friends and it makes me sad.. Though in the mean time I have no idea what to do....
Iamlost97 Iamlost97
13-15, F
2 Responses May 18, 2012

Message me if you need some cheering up or if you just want to rant or vent. I am 20 male from California. I am not going to do anything weird. Just lending an ear for you :)

It's called being young. This is the time to date lots of people and discover what it is you really want in a partner. <br />
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There will come a boy (or girl) who will be the one that does it for you. You won't have to wonder about it. You will just know for sure, this is the one I can spend my life with. You will know after 1 month, 6 months, 2 years......the feelings may fluctuate and be stronger at times, but when you think about maybe breaking it off, you won't be able to imagine your life without that boy.