Lost MemoryI seriously can't even remember a time in my life when I was truly happy. Just to wake up everyday, feeling happy that my boyfriend would text me "good morning beautiful<3", feeling happy that I get to hang with friends today, feeling happy that I'm alive... all of those feelings are gone. Now, I just wake up every morning, to the same text, to the same hatred, and to the same pain. Sometimes, I'm even disappointed that I wake up, like I was just hoping to stay in a coma of Dreamland, where everyone around me is happy, including me.
My relationship has been the biggest issue with this. We started out awesome, he would call me, bring me tiny gifts often, treat me like a lady, and we just loved each other. But now, nothing happens, no calls, no gifts, and absolutely no manners, I'm one of the guys now. He's also a different person, he used to act like a man when I needed him to, he'd never poke or make fun of me, and would watch his mouth. Now, he criticizes my every move, makes stupid boyish decisions, and drops F-bombs every other word.
I've been nothing but miserable since this all started happening. I wake up sad, go about my day sad, and cry myself back to sleep just to start the cycle all over again.