I Am Not Happy

I am very unhappy I have been like this for awhile now I feel like I am stuck in a rut that I can't get out of. I find myself crying a lot and hoping things will change. I have lost a lot in my life and something happened to me that changed me from the person I used to be.

princessv71 princessv71
31-35, F
5 Responses Feb 20, 2009

i know this feeling. something very small happened in my life and i feel i have lost everything. i just WISH i can JUST forget about that incidednt and move on because it was PURE bad luck and nothing else i feel. i am going to FORCE my self to be happy!!!

Loose any thing in your life to be happy. But never lose your self<br />

I can identify completely everyone says it will get better but it never does--This year we have had (my) favorite cat pass away-ok she was 20 years old and I did get to enjoy her a good long time but I think the vet screwed up and put her in pain in her last few minutes of life--makes me feel awful 7 months later- our 400. vacuum blew up and cost 200. to fix- we were required by our town to connect to city sewage and when they put in the connection they plugged a drain in my basement and it flooded sewer back into my basement every time it rained(and my neighbors too) and since they wouln't admit it and therefore wouldn't fix it I had to permanently plug it-making it hard to scrub my basement now with no drain to scrub the water too! and our whole yard had to dig up from back to front it cost an arm and a leg -the guy left it a big piled up mess and didn't bother trying to pack it down at all and now there is a muddy mess for my dog to drag in my house everyday our 65" TV that wasn't even 3 years old quit working and cost 500.00 to fix and 2 weeks ago I walked into my garage and my husband found that the hood of my car was all bashed in--I was NOT in an accident?And of course the insurance company is trying to find every way to get out of paying anything even though I have full coverage and have had VERY FEW claims over the like 20 years I have been with them!!!This is only August I still have 4 more months to go of this Nightmare of a year--I have tried to be faithful to God and pray and realize these things are only "things"I still have my husband and my mother and father and siblings but I was told 3 years ago I had spinal stenosis degenerative disc disease and double scoliosis all concentrated in my 4 out of 5 of my lower lumbar and last year I had to quit working because I no longer could do the physical work that was all I knew all my life so for us this was pretty devastating blows--So I can relate believe me!

I can really relate to what you are saying. I have had several things to take place in my life that have changed me. Hold your head up, and things will start looking up for you. I know it may not seem like it at times. Trust me I know! I hit my lowest point today, and I am finallly realizing that I can get through it. Message me if you ever need someone to talk to.

sorry your feeling like that i get stuck in ruts all the time, my shopping mall story kinda sums it up, whish i could help