A lot of us do it, and so do I.
I internalize, and bottle up all my anger, frustration, hate, and resentment. I just keep it inside, all to myself untill finally I can't take it anymore, and I just explode, and let it all out at once.
I don't know how not to, its what ive always done, its part of who I am. But when I'm at my breaking point, and about to let loose, I change. I dont give a flying f*** about anything, or anyone, and I no longer care if someone gets hurt by what I do or say.
I become, well... evil.
And until im alone I stay that way, sometimes hours, sometimes days, all that anger, and hate just sitting there boiling inside of me like a pressure cooker about to explode.
and then I let loose when im by myself, its safer that way, no one gets hurt besides me, the walls, and anything in the general area.
and then I'm back to being me again. But I'm afraid that one day, I wont be alone, and ill just loose it on someone for no reason, I'll probably kill em, I don't know.
But thats the part that scares me the most... what if someone else is there when I snap?
shaaka shaaka
26-30, M
1 Response Aug 24, 2014

for one thing when im with you YOU wont get the chance to go off

Lol
true that XD

We just that meant to be ;)