I Hate Admitting It Too =/The hardest thing for me to admit to myself, to my friends, and even to people that I don't know, is that I am not okay. I want so badly to appear strong all the time, and like I can handle just about anything that life throws my way. I want to be the one that people feel like they can come to to, and talk to about anything, and I won't feel overwhelmed.
But right now, i need to admit it,that I am not okay. As bad as I don't want to, because I don't want to appear weak, and like I can't handle anything, I don't want people to worry that they can't talk to me, because of what I'm going through, I want my friends to still come and talk to me about what they are going through and not have to worry.
I hate that I am feeling this way, but I can't keep it together on my own, I feel extremely weak, and vulnerable right now, I am opening myself up, to someone, well right now, anyone I guess since I am writing this. This is not something I do often, because I am scared I am going to get hurt, but I need to just come out and say that I am not okay, and I hate that so damn much.
Maybe this should be a blog entry, I am sorry if I upset anyone, I am just trying to get my thoughts out I guess. Again, I'm sorry