I'm Really Not
I'm really not okay. I try to be. I work hard to improve myself and to try to make my life better. To panic less. To handle life more. Not to fall into a deep depression over outside influences I can not control. But it's hard. I have no help from anyone and this life is so hard. I have no one to turn to. I'm lucky to have met some people online who can relate to an extent and that is a comfort. But I'm still all alone with everyday life and everything is still all on my shoulders and mine alone. Everything is just so overwhelming and so often seems so hopeless. Nothing I do seems to make anything any better at all. Things seem to continually get worse despite my best efforts. So I definitely am not okay.