I constantly question why I'm alone but it's really all my fault. Ive taught myself if you don't get attached it doesn't hurt when they leave but now I can't seem to keep anyone around.
talgia talgia
22-25, F
3 Responses Aug 24, 2014

I can relate to every single word you just said. <3

Physically I LOVE to be alone but emotionally I HATE IT and it confuses me. I push people away from me but I do it because I want them to beg for my existent because I don't feel real sometimes. When I'm alone it's just like omg who am I why am I here my life is a waste and sometimes when I around people I care for it feel happy and then other times I feel worthless even in a room full of people I just mimic the mutual feeling to get by when deep down I hate myself to the core.

Same girl your not alone