Recently I've been thinking a lot about suicide, like I'm not even afraid to do it. I just feel like everything I do is wrong and I'm a huge disappointment to everyone. Feels like everyone would have an easier life if I wasn't here. Anyone else get like this? 😔
kirbyjade kirbyjade
22-25, F
13 Responses Sep 2, 2014

Do you have a plan?

My plan is to eventually, move away from everything here, start a fresh and begin a new chapter. I'm fed up of feeling like this and people constantly putting me down

I can see why you might want to do that. People can certainly be jerks. Anyone or thing in particular?

Mainly my parents, I know that sounds awful but I'm completely different to them. They don't listen to anything I have to say and it's like they're always disappointed in me because I don't want to do what they want me to do

That's definitely a lousy situation. Is there a certain point of contention or perhaps a gradual build up that has worn you down?

It doesn't sound awful that you have conflicting desires. It's a good and necessary indication of your capacity for independent thought.

Yeah it's been going on for a while, and I've just reached breaking point

May I ask how old you are?

I'm hoping to get an apprenticeship in vet nursing but it's so hard to get so that's also making me a bit depressed as I have no job either

So you have a passion for animals? Do you suppose you could volunteer somewhere to get your foot in the door?

That's an awesome goal, btw. Some people don't have the intuition to work with animals.

19

Do you have interest in college?

I absolutely love animals, have my own horse so would love to do equine nursing! Yeah I would like to, however I really need an income:/

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I'm sorry you're in such a dark place. While I have experienced those thoughts myself, I cannot claim to know what you're going through. I do know what it's like to welcome the unknown in favor of the known. To think that nothing can be worse than continuing to suffer.
I also know that when individuals are contemplating suicide, they are not fully CAPABLE of accepting and understanding that nothing is permanent. Nothing. This, too, shall pass.

What's going on that has left you more fearful of life than death?

I have been there,just remember you are human and we make mistakes just learn from them and improve yourself.

Uh.. Idk what you are being through, but just remember a thing, everyone has a purpose here. And you are as amazing as anyone. Don't feel low. Even If you are depressed, talk. And talk your heart out.

Well put jackoutsidethe box

"You're living, you occupy space, you have a mass, you matter" - Albert Einstein

"Wrong" is a relative term. You may be doing exactly what you need to so you can gain the necessary experiences to help others in the future. You are very young and have tremendous potential. You probably have 70+ years to make positive differences in peoples lives and you are thinking about giving up after only 20 or so? There are so many amazing things you are going to do, people you will meet, lives you will touch. There's someone out there that you are supposed to be with in the future that will never get the chance to meet you if you are gone. That person may never live to their full potential because you decided you didn't want to be here anymore.

Crazy to give up now!!! You are only beginning. You may upset s few people early on but that just experience to build on. Hang in there it gets better and worse :) but we focus on the better.

You'd make a great counselor with a bit more information. You've got some serious heart.

I really appreciate the honesty. There's no way around it.

I don't know about that, I'm no expert like some among us. I just wish I would proof read better before I post..ugh the typos! :)

When I was younger. I worked through it.,

Life is tough, it's how well you take your bumps and bruises along the way, and keep pushing on.

The emotional part of loosing someone you care about can be a daily torment to them. It can last for years. Suicide is not a fix.

People care, if you need help call a crisis line. Contact the police, do whatever but try to shake these thoughts and quickly, again suicide is not a fix to the situation.

Ill give u my personal opinion. Plz don't. Maybe we can help if u tell us what gives u those thought. It only helps if u talk about the core of the problem

Yeah but it's not really gonna help.

Lots of people go through that feeling, often around 20 or so. It's not true though, you are worth it, and if you're making errors and getting things wrong, thats how you learn, thats how you improve yourself.

i use to get like that all the time still do quit often but now i nave a fear of death. . but you are worth it and you are not a dissapointment , if you need anyone to talk to im here.