How Do You Keep This Going?

I just don't know. Lots of things going on lately. Lots of things. The first big thing, I think, was my anniversary. April first. It's a little ironic, I know, considering that boy was the best thing that ever happened to me. We've been together for a year now. That boy treats me the best I've ever been treated by any boy. When I first met him, I was in... Well, I guess you could call it a relationship. A very bad one. Why do guys take advantage of girls? Even the nice ones do it, sometimes, when you"re vulnerable. I know this from personal experience. But not my guy, not him. He's tall. Smart. Kinda funny. A little bit of a dork, sometimes. Just so nice. So loyal. Loving. Yes, loving... At least, I hope he's loving, 'cause I love that guy with all I have. And with what I don't have. Well, our anniversary came up. He's a teenage boy. He's 13, I'm 13. As you might expect, when our anniversary rolled around, this teenage boy started to give me all that, "Come on, we've been dating for a year and we STILL haven't had sex." I was scared when he started to talk about that, because I wanted to, just not so early. I wanted it with him, because, well, I love him, and I didn't want him to get bored of me and go look for someone else. So, April 19th of this year, I had sex with this boy. It hurt. But I wanted it more and more and more and more and more and more and more. April 24th, I turned 13, so I was then the same age as him. I was on birth control. I got it a year ago to settle my raging hormones, so I was covered in that whole area. There was a short amount of time when I thought I was pregnant, but I'm not and that was stupid of me to worry about it so much. Well, my guy would sneak into my house at night, sometimes when my mom was home, most of the time not, and we would have sex and all of that fun stuff, then he left in the morning and snuck back into his house before his parents woke up. Recently, like, last tuesday, I forgot to set the alarm for us to wake up and get this boy home before his parents woke up. I woke up an hour and a half after the alarm was due to go off. I got him up and out in a hurry. About ten minutes after he left, his dad called me. I didn't answer, but of course, his daddy was wondering where he was. I called my guy to warn him. He was just approaching his house. He had gotten a call, too, from his dad that he didn't answer. So he knew. I forgot to mention to my guy to delete the texts we had been sending back and forth. In some of those conversations we had been talking about the sex. His parents got his phone. Read the texts. Found everything out. Well, me and a bunch of my friends, including my guy, had a plan to go to Tennessee. My boy can't go. He's even getting taken out of the last two weeks of school because his mom doesn't want him around me. She's blocking my number from his phone. She's taking him to North Dakota all summer and I won't be able to talk to him... She even went as far as to start locking him in his room at night. He wants to keep this going. To keep us going. But I don't see how we can do that.
maddyjean08 maddyjean08
13-15, F
May 13, 2012