Me A Coward?

O.K. on Wednesday...I texted him that basically we need to accept that our marriage is over and move on...YEAH I KNOW...IT WAS VERY COWARDLY OF ME...I put that in my text too and apologized...I just could not seem to approach him and say the words without my voice trembling and/or crying...so i chose the cowardly route and texted him...Well, he actually gave me no response...I asked if he got my text...he did...and has now being acting as if nothing ever happened...I am not sure...but one thing I do know..I feel better...I got that off my chest....At this point..that is how I feel, and I am glad I made him aware of that ..even if it was via text...You know..this situtation is a really crazy thing to be in...I have never changed my mind so much...my thoughts and feelings have never been so back in forth--at least I don't think--in my life...there are time I love him and times when I can't stand him...It was freeing for me to be honest about my feelings...He hasn't been rude to me and I haven't been rude to him either...in fact, it made me look at things differently..he knows how i feel right now...no questions..IT IS WHAT IT IS AT THIS POINT....I am determined to go on ...with or without him...THAT I KNOW FOR SURE...AND I PLAN TO CONTINUE TO BE MORE HONEST ABOUT HOW I AM FEELING...whether good or bad...

By the way..he is still here...I gave him the opportunity to run, walk or crawl away....THAT DOOR IS STILL OPEN