Trying To Heal. But The Girl I Use To Be Is Gone ForeverI have been thru hell and back in the past 4 years having to be the victim of my husband's ex wife. Who is a sociopath. She has harassed, stalked, started rumors and lies about me in an attempt to make me feel lsolsted and instill fear and insecurity about myself. She has gone to my childs school and told the teacher nasty lies about me. She has done whatever she can to make sure I willnever obtain happiness and joy in my life . I realize now that she doesn't plan to stop her abuse and harrassment
So I have accepted this and gained much knowledge in dealing and recovering from a sociopaths devistating trauma to my self esteem, confidence, and insecurities I feel going out to evrn pick up my kid and her kids, because I don't know what people think of me and the really insulting, humiliating and degrading lies the sociopath has told about me. Its hard for me to walk around wirth my head up high not knowing what people in my community beleive about me. The stuff said has been so defamatory that if I was employeed, I would be fired.
I just feel totallyy consumed by this situation. Christmas, birthdays, Easter, any fun holiday event is stress. A sociopath can be so damaging to whoevr they are vitimizing. So afte dealing with this I am not the same person. I am skeptical and its hard for me to enjoy much pf anything i use to love. I hope thia experience makes me stronger, and doesn't kill me first. I am working hard everyday to learn new copiny skillss to get thru this.