You Wouldn't Have Liked Me Very Much.

I was selfish,mean and devious.I went after whatever I wanted and took it consequences be damned.Friendship and loyalties meant nothing to me. I never thought about how my actions would hurt others and when I did think about it ,well it was to bask in the awfulness of revenge.Sometimes I could actually feel the evilness inside me and it would make me smile. 
This is why as my husband was abusing me year after year I thought I was being punished for my previous actions.It took a lot of therapy to realize he was not G-d's "enforcer" and I didn't deserve all I was getting.
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1 Response May 18, 2012

No one deserves abuse no matter what they have done.