Being The Oldest Child SucksAs you know living in a big family is a hard gig, especially when your the oldest. Me as the oldest has to, clean, cook, babysit, and be the "role model" or "example". I really hate being the oldest. To my mom, everything I do is wrong. Only because it "effects" my brothers and sisters. So my mom gets mad over the simplest things. I tell my brother to stop bugging me, and my mom freaks out and yells at me saying that he is younger then me, and that I should know better. I also hate when the little ones get into something, and its always my fault to my mother. For example, they get into the fridge all the time. As the food is all gone out of the fridge all over the dinning room, and the kids playing in the puddle of milk, while in the living room my mom is yelling at me saying how its all my fault and how I let it happen. Everything just happens to be my fault! I didn't do anything! Its as if my mom doesn't love, or care for me at all; and blames me for there faults so she doesn't have to hurt there feelings or something.
And having a little brother is the worst position you can have. All that he seems to enjoy is to bug the heck out of me; I never liked how my brother can bug me all he wants, and I cant do anything to him. Just think of it. People thinks its cute that he bugs me, then I do it to him, people would think of me as a jerk. My mom has no idea how it is to have a family that puts stress on your shoulders. They just don't get how hard there being on me. My mom acts different with every child. As for me of course, is the worst. I feel as though no one cares about me anymore. I feel so alone now that my sister has grown apart from me. It happens to me at school too. I have no friends to talk with, i sit alone at lunch thinking how I wish life could end soon, and how it would be nice to have someone there. I know people everyone has much of a worse condition then mine. But I'm still a human being. I have feelings, and it seems that my mom and my family forget that.