I Rejected My Relatives After Too Many Years Of Abuse

there was always a barrier .. where louise, bugsy and my sister and mary always stood by and helped each other while back stabbing me and my mum and dad...

my sister spread lies about me and my dad....

she used to change her clothes and go over to peoples places saying she was me... and my aunties did the same thing to my mother as well



they never liked me... mary abused me in 1975 when my mum was having my brother in hospital ... they would not let me talk to my mum on the phone and took the phone from me... they gave anything to my sister that I asked for ... this confused me and effected my mental stability all my life

bugsy and louise were making out on the kitchen floor in 1975 and they were abusive to me... they think I can't remember things cuz I was only 4 at the time but I do remember some things.


bugsy was on with louise in 75 and I know it... and he was mean to me.


bugsy came back into my life looking different in the late 70s and he used to taunt me over my genitle area and

there was obvious favoritism going on... at gigs rose and brig went to that I was not welcome to


there were other things I was not welcome to be apart of


nick van eede looked a lot like the guy I knew as bugsy and certainly Louises husband Bruce... so this is were it all gets strange



I was told they owned a soft drink company and it was Coca-cola ... owned by Kirks (meaning church) and RC Cola was ROman Catholic


they did me over and abused the sh it out of me as a child and did it again when I was a teen and even into my 20s



bugsy got heather to bash me one day in the city and I gave up university having another nervous breakdown

joyce told me "This is the kick up the bum you deserve"   I was confused why??? I had done nothing to deserve it



Joyce and bugsy used to abuse me at the Blue Light discos getting girls and teen guys to laugh and make fun of me

this effected me all my life



I felt I was only good for dirty ugly smelly old men like bill who was molesting me

that is what they wanted me to think too.


my uncle Ron started molesting me and spying on me everywhere


it broke me down



I shut down  as a young woman... and romanticly and sexually seeing myself as groteque


they got ken carey to rape  me then ... to stop other nicer single better men from liking me


its all about power and control



I am old and tired now. 


my heart is broken ...


I feel disappointed by life !!!!


I can't forgive sue and michael, elizabeth and her mongrel kid


I can't forgive my relatives for getting me ignored by nice men and then raped by a fat dirty married scum man who was a user



I resent the way my family have abused me.... that is why I want nothing to do with them.
czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
36-40, F
6 Responses May 10, 2012

THE WHOLE TIME I WAS BEING BULLIED AND ABUSED AND MOLESTED BY BILL IN THE 70S AND BULLIED BY MY SISTER AND EVERYONE ELSE... MY RELATIVES TREATED ME LIKE A DIRTY DEVIANT CHILD RATHER THAN BILL AS THE PEDO ... THEY PROTECTED THE PERPETRATOR AT MY EXPENSE... WHERE IS THE MORALS IN THAT... THAT TO ME SPELLS SATANIC TO LABEL AND BLAME A CHILD FOR THE ABUSE AND REFUSE HELP !!!!! I CAN'T GET OVER IT. AND THEY DID IT AGAIN 20 YEARS AGO WITH RON MY UNCLE AND THEN AGAIN 10 YEARS AGO WITH KEN... <br />
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ALWAYS PROTECTING THE PERPETRATORS OF CHILD ABUSE AND RAPE AND NEVER HELPING THE VICTIM... THE SAME PATTERNS THEN KEEP HAPPENING WITH EACH PERSON EACH TIME THEN.

I think the young single men deserve a kick up the ar se .... they should have been made to get offf their ar se and talk to me... instead of dirty married old fat git sh it bag scum ... I blame Leigh Moris dog face for that ... and those dirty navy officers on that ship... they are all dirty! dirty dirty people. and dirty old poopter Joyce Poorter didn't want me at university incase I did meet a nice young man... she was so jealous of me she could not bare to see me look pretty and clever at the same time.<br />
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instead of the young men getting a boost and tips on chatting with single girls the married men want it now ... and the only people getting kicks up the ar se are the young women who have been sexually abused as kids....?? try figure that out?

all through my teens and 20s and 30s Sue, Elizabeth and Louise have competed harshly and heavily with me over young guys ... they always want to demonstrate their sexual supremacy to me; they were jealous of me being at university and studying, and made sure they ruined that on me... as they also did with school... they made sure I failed school and was bashed.... I believe Ricky and my relatives got those martin girls to bash me up... Louise wanted to take everything away from me... <br />
so I would never look better than her... she has to be the academic, financially and sexual supreme woman of the family... always the teenager.<br />
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Elizabeth either wanted me pregnant at 13 or as I am living like a nun... she could not bare to see me with a young professional man ... she was so jealous of my sister she could not even come to my sisters wedding .. she always has to be centre of attention so she did not come because my sister might look prettier than her on the day. she is the controller of everything and a real snoop.<br />
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Sue is just so self obsessed she can only see herself and is so used to having all the toy boys on the side ... and skytes about what a perfect husband she has but its never enough for her.... she wants everyone elses young di ck as well.... <br />
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this is what I have had to put up with all my life... this sexual supremecy games out of them and they are so rich and better ... louise can't bare to see me look a lovely young woman... she could not bare to see me get married to a man I loved... she even wanted to control who was gonna be in my bed... that is why her and a few others got me raped... so their daughters can look the virgin mary perfect ones over my sister and I... I seen her game ... Louise has to be 'TOP DOG' all the time!!!! and they were out to take me down right from day one... and she has had a lot of help to destroy me... <br />
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they are all the same .... they are satans pact devil dogs...!!!! they could not bare to see me get my degree or meet a nice man at university .... so jealous of me ..even when I was a little girl they were jealous of me!!!!<br />
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Louise is a tycoon who wants her way all the time... and she is extremely competitive and she would be nothing without the all the help she gets from the old sue dog.... that sue should be shot dead ... all my relatives are sexually pushy and bulldoze their way through life. they lack decorum and dignity ... they make everyone else look retarted and they make everyone else feel like they are the scum of the earth... NOTHING ON THIS PLANET IS AS PERFECT AS LOUISE!!!! AMEN... WHERE IS THAT PLANET NOW NAMED AFTER HER...!!!!

u story a lot like mine sweetiexx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nvej-wEI3NI<br />
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after being molested by bill from 1975- 1985 who was always drunk, vomiting and fitting everywhere how dirty smelly old wrinkled body made me feel ugly.... just like how ken carey's body made me feel ugly and vial....<br />
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my cousin patrick molestered me in the early and late 70s<br />
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my brothers godparents son molested me and bashed me as well after his father died. <br />
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all of my relatives they used to make fun of me as a child and they also used to make fun of my sister and father. <br />
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I always felt uncomfortable around my relatives <br />
it got worse as I got older.... my aunty Roslyn used to say nasty things to be all the time and she let her husband get away with sexually assaulting me she used to think it was funny watching me cringe away in disgust. and they liked dumping their kids off for me to look after cuz they were too busy in bed to take care of their kids properly. <br />
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my mum's family have always treated us as if we were spastic and below them.... they look down their noses at us all the time... Sue and Elizabeth want to be the teenagers and little girls and bullies at it suits them to play the roles ... its always to stop nice young men wanting to know us.... Sue and Elizabeth a sexual animals who can not be trusted with any young man... they will steal boyfriends from any young teen ....<br />
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they always try to make out I am a liar, crazy and spastic or that I am lazy and anything negative.... they ruined my chances at a life as a teen out of jealousy because I was younger than them.<br />
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they can't bare to see me look pretty, professional, educated or loved... they do everything they can to destroy my life they are satanic evil demonic people.<br />
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I am sure they helped get me raped.... they go around raping women in the family as pay backs .... so they look like wh ores.... they did this to me when I was a little girl as well with Bill. <br />
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they are the mental cases .... they are idiots!!!