I Thought I'd Be More.

I am 20 years old. I wanted to have graduated from high school and be half way through nursing school at Linfield right now. I wanted to be working as a CNA on the side. There are a whole bunch of community groups I wish I was involved in. I was in a relationship with the man of my dreams, and I wish I was still in it. I want to not struggle to get out of bed everyday.

Instead I am a high school dropout. I am halfway through getting my GED, and I will be attempting to attend college in the fall. I did work as a CNA for awhile. But, as with my relationship, I blew that too. I hate being mentally ill. I hate all the effort it takes just to function. I want to believe that I can get better and be more than I am not. But I just don't know...
Coffinnail Coffinnail
18-21, F
2 Responses Aug 30, 2011

The fact that you keep going means you are on the right track

I feel you : (. I'm almost 26 years old, and although I graduated from college, the job where I am, having a Bachelor's means nothing. People who had Associates earn two times more than me and have less experience than me. I really praise you for getting up though, and continuing on wth life. I know many high school drop outs who don't take school seriously, and am glad that you are going to go to college. Don't worry, there are many 20 year olds who are at the same position. l<br />
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Good luck to you.