NO Where Near It !!!!

NO WHERE NEAR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS SO ******* SAD TO ME.

I'm a planner and i had my adult life so called planned out until i realized the only thing certain and definite in this life is change and death. I wanted to have kids by now a nice home and a a car. I have a husband, no kids and no car. Had a car. but he crashed it, am in no type of position to replace it. and we dont even have living room furniture in the apartment that we have because its hard even to pay the rent. its just not what i envisioned for myself. i worked hard and went to school full time while working full time to get my bachellors. busted my *** to get to a good postion at my job but i am still struggling. it just doesnt seem fair to me. then i have friends who have less than me, no husband, no good job and they have 3 kids already. i dont understand mylife or my purpose. its like i am here to help others but what about the things i really want. the things i need someone to help me acheive. its so hard and unfair. i idont even want a lot i just want a family of my own and a house i can be proud of. i want the standard but i am right below the boarderline, why cant i get over it. why????

goldie25 goldie25
31-35, F
8 Responses Dec 31, 2008

i guess i shouldnt even be so gung ho to get pregnant, when he isnt. that should be an idicator or warning sign for me as it is. but i cant help it. who wouldnt want to be a mother and add to the family she has created with her husband. he says i should be happy with what we have but i cant help but want more.

well i work hard, he hardly works, but still feels he should have so much more, go figure! he has two kids before me so he is like what is the urgency. and i am already 29 two years older than when you had your child. and we are already at the 4 year point. i dont know what is going to give or what is going to change but i hope something does. right now my odds are looking pretty ****** up though! and its so devestating to me.

Dearest Goldie,<br />
<br />
I know how you feel, I have been there, and I am still struggling.<br />
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When I got married we didn't have anything, we worked so hard (18 hours a day 7 days a week, two jobs, both of us) for 4 years till we could save enough to support a baby.<br />
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I had my baby when I was 27. She is the best thing that ever happened to me. And believe me when I tell you, raising a child is really really harder than I could ever imagine. But so worth it.<br />
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You still have time, work harder but don't give up.<br />
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I know it's hard, but you need some saving before you bring a child into this world.<br />
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Wish you all the best.

cvalle thanks for caring but i think you missed part of the point. i dont need more time for family what i want is the family. i am doing everything that i feel possible to set up to have that good nurturing family. working hard trying to maintain my marraige and my home but yet no kids. i feel i have everything that most parents want to have yet i am missing the main ingredient.

Part of it is the economy is so terrible that people can't move up or get ahead- it's frustrating now but all I can say is it will get better. :)<br />
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I'm 25 and making **** pay right now- but hopefully 1-2 years from now I'll be in a better position.

Goldie,<br />
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I don't know you. I do know God Loves you more than you can ever imagine. Giving my life over to Christ Jesus has changed this near death alcoholic into a wonderful person who knows that Im loved and, who loves others. Iwant to share with an opportunity that is also changing my life and can change yours as well. First of all are you happy with your current job? Would you like more time to spend with your spouse and kids? What are your long term goals for the future? What Im about to tell you can change your life to where you have the time,money,and freedom to do as you please. Please go to You owe this to yourself and your family. Please feel free to call if you would like more information. I said a quick prayer for you. May God truly bless you and your family.<br />
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Sincerely,<br />
<br />
Charles Vallee<br />
Zurvita, Marketing Rep.

Sometimes, things don't go as planned, but that is not to say that the things you want to happen won't happen. It may just take a little longer than what is expected. Have patience and continue to work on your goals. Don't give up.

yaa basicaly life can be unfair. Some people are just dealt better hands