NO Where Near It !!!!
NO WHERE NEAR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS SO ******* SAD TO ME.
I'm a planner and i had my adult life so called planned out until i realized the only thing certain and definite in this life is change and death. I wanted to have kids by now a nice home and a a car. I have a husband, no kids and no car. Had a car. but he crashed it, am in no type of position to replace it. and we dont even have living room furniture in the apartment that we have because its hard even to pay the rent. its just not what i envisioned for myself. i worked hard and went to school full time while working full time to get my bachellors. busted my *** to get to a good postion at my job but i am still struggling. it just doesnt seem fair to me. then i have friends who have less than me, no husband, no good job and they have 3 kids already. i dont understand mylife or my purpose. its like i am here to help others but what about the things i really want. the things i need someone to help me acheive. its so hard and unfair. i idont even want a lot i just want a family of my own and a house i can be proud of. i want the standard but i am right below the boarderline, why cant i get over it. why????