Who I Once Was Is Forever Gone

There are change's that await each person as they travel through life. Many of these change's are expected with age and you can somwhat prepair for them but some can come out of nowhere and change you in way's that are impossible to brace for. For me it was depression and forever changed the person I once was. Where I once lived life, today I live in fear of life. I once loked forward to each new day and what they would bring but now I fear them for the same reason, what will the bring ?

You try to fight off that which depression bring's to you but much of it you have no defence to put up. From on top of the world to the pit's of hell in the blink of an eye at any given time and you never see it comming. So you start changing and avoiding thing's in life that you once enjoyed because you now fear they will trigger a depressive mood and take you down that path that you wish to avoid. You now look at everything and everybody different thriugh fearful eye's. The laugh and smile that you once had for the most part is gone no matter how hard you try. I know that the best part of me is gone and I will not see it again so I try to adjust to life with what is still left. I miss me.
Robert1256 Robert1256
51-55, M
1 Response Dec 14, 2010

you are the only one that truly know what you are going through, i pray God grant you a perfect health, peace of mind and joy even as you looked forward to each day, may u find purpose to live for.