, i smile. i play the game. noone wants to always here the sad n dark thoughts in my head. i scream , i yell when noone is home. it doesnt help. the pain, the rage , the anger n sadness i feel, r still there.so i will just keep plaing pretend, who wants to be around someone like me, not even i do. so like a child playing an actress on tv, i just keep on pretending. even i dont want to be me.