I dont even know myself anymore. When i started to feel a little different i wondered why, but now everythings piled up to the point that i dont know how to deal with any of it, so i dont. Only 2 friends know everything im going through, and one im starting to grow apart from. everyone else just sees me smiling and getting good grades and getting upset over low scores but no one knows what im feeling, and no one guesses. Everyone thinks im stupid for caring about some stuff that i do and they dont listen when i explain it. I just dont care about any of what they care about anymore, and i cant find anyone else who thinks the way i think.